by SophieCub » October 2nd, 2013, 7:02 pm
Well I just found out that my granda's aunt died today. I could see this coming, since I had a dream a few weeks ago where I watching her die, it was an awful dream but she was getting really old so I knew it was a sign that her death was coming. She was forgetting everything too, I'm happy that she's in a better place now. I wasn't close to her, I did see her a few times this year though. I feel bad for my granda, he lost his cousin a few months ago and now his aunt.. and things aren't looking good for his mother either.. I'm in awe of his strength. Strongest man I know. I feel like I didn't know he well enough to be upset but I do feel really sad. She really loved me even though we barely saw each other and I feel guilty about not going to see her.
The last time I saw her I was in a mood that day and was being really horrible to people. My gran and granda were dropping things off at her house, I just sat in the car and I didn't even go over to her house and say hello. I just waved goodbye, and a pathetic wave at that. This has not been a good year for my family at all.. one of our worst. She was a lovely woman, she really was.
Plus I have therapy tomorrow and I don't want to go because I know she'll tell me how much I've screwed things up. Here's to the future...
Sorry, just had to let all this out. Can't be bothered to text my friends and get no reply.