What are you thinking RIGHT NOW?

[Buffy]

Green detox juice is gross. But I WILL start to get healthy, sooo yeah.

[Regulus]

Aww, I am sure you will find someone too Reg ;3 But Valentines day does suck.. Lol.

Thanks.

But, lol, I know why I don't have someone. I think.

First of all, I'm much too shy to approach a girl that I like directly. Which... I know, is ridiculous... but yeah. I always talk myself out of it before it happens, by making up excuses, and I kinda shoot myself in the foot with that. At least it's something that I am capable of fixing, so that's a plus. I just need to work on that a little.

Secondly, of all the girls who have approached me before, not one did I actually have any interest in. It was not because they weren't pretty, but because any girl who has the audacity to approach me in such a way is too much for me to handle comfortably.

It's not at all a matter of if a girl approaches me, but more so how she approaches me. I'm inevitably going to be terribly uncomfortable when a girl is "pushy," even though that type of personality is heavily favored in our culture. If this is not clearly understood and accepted, then said person is not going to be able to understand me on any sort of level. If a girl approaches me in a cute way, then it would be a completely different story. But that has yet to happen.

To be clear, It's not that I don't appreciate the outgoing type; that kind of person just isn't for me. I can't live like that. That would not be a healthy relationship; I'd feel trapped, misunderstood, annoyed, and controlled. I'd be pushed to my limits and my hair would fall out in 30 seconds flat. Maybe 25 seconds, I don't really know.

In theory, a relationship shouldn't stress me out. It should have the opposite effect. A significant other should be someone I could trust, no matter how bad the situation gets. That being said, I'm not even going to bother with someone unless I know that they would be able to accept me as I am.

In essence, I'm not entirely sure whether it's because I'm too picky or too shy, but I'd be willing to bet it's actually the latter. I don't think I'm being too unreasonable here, by saying that all I care about is having someone who understands and accepts me for who I am.

Maybe I am, though. Who knows.

lol, I don't usually ramble about things like this, but sometimes I need to just because it helps me make sense of it all. Life is just too complicated, sometimes.

But yeah, we'd have to be crazy to think that we wouldn't find someone, eventually. Simply put, it's too statistically improbable, unless every effort is made to avoid human contact at all possible.

[juhouh]

Oh c'mon not again...

[Tsuki]

I should go to bed if I'm up at 4am.....but I'm too nervy

[Si-Amber]

^ Horlics?

[Carl]

Hope you're ok, Tsuki.

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Regs, sounds like you need a situation like how I ended up with my girl. You need to find a girl who's fun to talk to and just chill with who sets your feels going just enough to make you actually approach her, lol. I still don't know how I did it. xD Ok, I do, but it just baffles me that I was able to.

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I should finish this drawing of Kopa for my story... man I need to figure out for sure how to end this thing. Maybe I'll have to cliffhanger it. Well, obviously that will be necessary in a way anyway, cos I can't just keep writing and keep writing about all generations and I can't kill off everyone either. Eheheh, ending it is going to be a challenge, but it needs to be done so I can finish the others. Yes. For now, maybe I'll just work on the Kopa pic.

[Tsuki]

^ Can't have it anymore as it gives me Migraines in the morning . And I don't want to miss my alarm or train.

And thanks Julie. I'm travelling tomorrow and I just get VERY nervy about it.

[SimbasMate]

I wish I had someone to do a TLK role play with.

[Carl]

^ I'd do one with you, but I'll be a cruddy RP buddy atm. ^^;

[Buffy]

^ I'd do one with you, but I'll be a cruddy RP buddy atm. ^^;

I'm sorry I am such a cruddy RP buddy. I DO intend on replying to our Harry Potter RP, I assure you, it's gonna happen!