Juliette wrote:Why am I always worrying about the future? I can let go of the past, I can enjoy the present, but I can't stop worrying about the future. Yes, maybe that dreadful thing will happen, but there's a chance it won't, too. There's a chance my hopes, dreams, and barely forming plans might just be realized. So why can't I stop worrying?
Hmm. Interesting.
On a related note, I had a strange dream about a week or two ago. I was really old, obviously near the end of my life. A kid walked up to me. He was probably a sort of reflection of myself now, but he looked so much younger.
I don't remember what happened exactly. All I remember is that I, the old man, told the boy he should be happy he has so many years left to live. I told him he could turn out to be anyone, and that he was only beginning to discover his true potential. He could someday walk on the moon, he could find a cure for cancer, he could dedicate his life to helping lions survive in Africa, or he could win a Nobel prize in physics. I told him the surprise of what his life will unfold to be (or cutie mark XD ), is the very thing that makes life worth living.
And as I said that, I laughed to myself, because I was being totally sarcastic. Even though I was near my death, knowing that I had accomplished nothing, and that I would be forgotten, I was satisfied. It felt relieving to say that I had not done any of those things. I knew what my fate was, and even though it was just about the worst case scenario, I was okay with that. I was able to accept it. I flat out lied to the kid. Not knowing the future felt so much worse than simply being able to accept the past, even if it sucked.
I've been thinking about this a lot, and I'm still not sure whether this means I shouldn't worry about the future, or something else... I have no idea.
In the Nod intro, they admit that they basically warship Tiberium, only to condemn it as a horrible substance one minute later. Woeler: care to search for RL parallels?
