by cleargreenwater » April 2nd, 2012, 6:04 pm
Missing the past, confusing the past with a specific person that was in it, tempted to re-connect with them because the opportunity just arose even though I know that time & again all it does is end up making me sadder because we have all grown apart and don't fit into each other's lifestyles anymore, and scared to because there's only so many times I can show back up in her life and then leave again for years at a time before my dear childhood friend writes me off.
tl;dr-- I am feeling suddenly and unexpectedly torn.