Hey Lynx, being mad or jealous is normal. I'm jealous of a lot of people too! If you wanna know the truth, I'm in a very close position to you right now. It's tough. Especially because I'm like you in the sense where I'm quiet and don't let it out. But, with how great you are at graphics, and just the kind of person you are in general, things will turn around. My motto is "Keep the hope alive." It might be hard to come across, but trust me, keep it. You'll be fine!

*Hugs*
All I can say is to practice. "Keep the hope alive" Because you gotta have it if you wanna continue and become what you wanna become.
Truthfully, what your doing is really inspiring to me. I do know one place where you can go and get some sweet programs for free... at least a few. I'll PM you the link if you want. Otherwise, just as I said before, keep the hope.
If you have WMM (Windows Movie Maker) It's not a bad program to use for videos... but not the best to be sure.
You've got all of us here if you need to vent or something don't hesitate. We're here for you, always.
