VERY BAD NEWS.

[thanigraphics]

I'm depressed. Deeply. Tomorrow I'll get new pills.
I tried to make it without them. It lasted 2 weeks. I'm having thoughts I don't even want to share with you guys. It's almost like beeing manic-depressed or something. One moment I'm happy and everything's okay. Then something happens that I don't like (like my website having issues because the I dont even know how its called in DX English stuff is not doing appropriate, hell free websites nooooo)

The saddest thing is, since I stopped taking medication, when I feel emotional, I get unable to talk, because my brains don't let me make up sentences. Like my language center in my brains is damaged.

This leads all to one conclusion. I'll be depending on pills to live the rest of my life
Man, I really don't feel like wanting to live like this another year.
I don't even know why I'm sharing this.

[SnowyCheetah]

[quote="thanigraphics"]I'm depressed. Deeply. Tomorrow I'll get new pills.
I tried to make it without them. It lasted 2 weeks. I'm having thoughts I don't even want to share with you guys. It's almost like beeing manic-depressed or something. One moment I'm happy and everything's okay. Then something happens that I don't like (like my website having issues because the I dont even know how its called in DX English stuff is not doing appropriate, hell free websites nooooo)

The saddest thing is, since I stopped taking medication, when I feel emotional, I get unable to talk, because my brains don't let me make up sentences. Like my language center in my brains is damaged.

This leads all to one conclusion. I'll be depending on pills to live the rest of my life
Man, I really don't feel like wanting to live like this another year.
I don't even know why I'm sharing this.[/quote]

Do the pills have some sort of side-effect that makes you want to stop taking them?

[thanigraphics]

Well, they cut off the very nasty sadness, but also the happiness. It's like emotions are shut down. But when I don't take them.... it's like hell.

[Azdgari]

Wow, I'm really sorry, Thani. You know it doesn't have to be forever though. Things will look up--they always do, and it's always darkest before dawn. If you need some help to get through the darkest of the night that's fine, but when the time comes, I know you'll walk through the sunrise off those pills and feeling every bit of happiness the world has to offer. =]

[Nakisisa]

I haven't done this in a while, I mean post to help someone, let's give it another try.

Thani, I haven't known you that long but I know your a great Person to be around, your always here on the game threads making everyone happy and keeping their spirits up, I know I look at you and say, "Man I wish I had his art skills" and others will look and say "man I whish I had his Creativity to post that much" because your a role model, someone who we can all prety much base our lives off, someone who is there for everyone when when we need them.
Medicine is advancing all the time, now I don't know exactly what's wrong with you, but that doesn't matter, providing you give yourself a fighting chance, you can do anything, be anyone, try anything you put your whole body into, just give it a try, and see what you think, a life is as sacred as your personal beliefs, don't break them if you don't have to.