Part of me is thankful she doesn't force me into looking into her eyes, which I can't after what happened, but another part of me dies when she ignores me in the hallway and doesn't talk to me. Did I do something wrong? Or is she hurt I "Ignored" Her? How could I possible explain I only did it because I was scared? I guess I was weak, she told me how much she needed me, that I kept her alive, and I broke under the pressure. This friendship is always so complicated.
