Kiana wrote:Well, I think its really happening. We're officially growing cold. She's changed, she isn't the same person I grew to always want to be with all that while ago. Somethings changed, she insults me all the time, and hates on everything I like. The insulting I can deal with, but I never do that to her! I think I've been trying to hide the fact we've changed from my mind so I can convince myself things are the way they used to be. I want her as a friend, and quite frankly, she was the only person to ever say she cared and worried about me in my mental state. I don't want to believe is over, I can't seem to be okay with this. She is the only person I could ever trust, the only person who knows what I've done. If I loose her, I'll never trust anyone again. It just can't be over for us. I was worried about bothering her too much, now I'm worried she'll think i hate her when I don't talk to her. I don't hate her, she's still my best fried, but I can't deal with this anymore, If this doesn't change, I don't know what I'm gonna do. I need to text her and work this out, see what she says about it,
As someone who has had a lot of issues with trusting people (and trusting the wrong people) I just want to say that yes things change in friendships and all relationships sometimes and yes, it can be really difficult to cope with, especially if you don't have the closure of understanding why/how/what happened. And yes, it often feels as though we won't be able to get past it, won't be able to trust again, etc., but that's never actually the case. We don't always stay friends with the same people, and sometimes the friendships we have change. It can be tough when someone we used to be able to tell anything to becomes someone we don't know that we can trust anymore, either they've changed or maybe we did, but things are just different...
But that's how life is sometimes, things change. It's not necessarily a bad thing, though it may feel like it now, and it doesn't necessarily mean the friendship is over. Either way, being a good person and being yourself will lead you to more people you can trust one day, maybe even someone else you already know, whether you realize it or not. But things will be okay. You'll see. One day you'll find a light at the end of the tunnel and you'll look back on this and marvel at how different things are.
