by Carl » July 8th, 2016, 7:42 am
Stupid. I can't shake this loneliness, and I know that I'm not going to find anyone to help with that any time soon. All the people I find online who meet my standards are always in other countries, and people irl aren't going to see me for who I am--even if they're ever interested, they'll just see me as a girl. And people who are into guys aren't going to be interested in one like me. It's best to just not worry about this stuff, especially since this grad school stuff is so much more important.
For some reason when everything else is crappy, that's when I'm most lonely. I guess I just want something to feel good about.