^ That kind of thing seriously sucks. I have started combating loneliness by working so hard that I hardly am in my brain anymore and rarely have the time or energy to be anything other than tired.

On that note, what I came here to whine about is:
I want to turn my consciousness off for until I am able to do my librarian thing. I'm so weary of wading through one craptastrophe after the other. I'm at the stage where I know quitting my job would be bad, but it is still crappy, so part of me just keeps hoping I'll get fired even though I know they probly can't afford to fire me as understaffed as they are and therefore won't. Which I guess is good in a way, as I need money, but meh. I've grown rather frustrated of this life and don't want to wait
longer still before I can get to work making it better.