What are you thinking RIGHT NOW?

[Carl]

I know how selfish it is, but I really want to be someone's best friend or someone's boyfriend. I just want something special. Someone who puts me before their other friends, instead of the other way around. Someone I have inside jokes with that our other friends don't get. Someone who gets me and doesn't leave when I need someone to stay. Someone who sees me and treats me as who I am, not what I look like. I am awkward, yes, and I do value alone time, but I don't want to be alone as often as I am.

On the rare times I've found people like that in the past though, I always tried too hard to please them and never looked out for myself enough and ended up ruining everything trying to fix problems that I wasn't capable of fixing and hang on to what I couldn't. I'd probably do the same thing again if I ever find something like that again--assuming I don't just run from it like I've kinda been doing.

I suppose I should just be grateful for the friends I do have, because I do have more friends than I'd have ever dreamed, even if I don't really talk to them off of MLK much (or ever). And I am grateful to have them. Every friend I have means a lot to me, and I'm friends to some degree with most of the active users here and that's pretty neat. So I guess I shouldn't be so glum. Most of the time these days there's someone reasonable and/or fun in the chatbox so I don't really have any excuse for being alone anymore, I guess.

[UncoordinatedPisces]

^ It's not selfish, KD - it's just something of the human nature. We all want to be loved, and I'm incredibly lucky to have that someone special. I've been in your situation before, trying hard to please someone and my problem was ignoring the issues. As for best friends, like boyfriends/girlfriend they are always harder to manage than they look. My best friend is someone I see almost every day, and by God we get sick of each other - but we're there for each other at the end of the day, and our arguments always seem to be over, petty, insignificant stuff.

Enough of me though, I know we don't really talk but you've always seemed like a cool person to talk to, and its evident a lot of people around here like and appreciate you. I haven't got any solid advice, aside from saying that Skype is where most of the action takes place. I'm going to try and revive TinyChat over the summer too which will be like another MLK chatbox, but without the rules and a chance to video/voice call for people who don't have Skype. I know that doesn't equate to you finding what you're looking for, but I'm hoping the community can get stronger, as I intend to stay.

Probably babbled a whole lot of nothing there!

[FireAndSun]

I'm thinking about if I should get a chest binder.

[Rollo]

As happy and as thankful as I am to get to go on vacation this September, I sort of wish we'd be going abroad again. Don't get me wrong, I love going to our chalet in Skye--we've been going there for ten/eleven years or so and it's like a secondhome to me. It's a beautiful place and we always have a wonderfully relaxing time, and I'm so excited to see my pup's reaction to having all this land and sea as her own playground. I know she'll love that. But I do wish we'd maybe go somewhere else for a change. As much as I hate flying and can only stand it for about four hours maximum, I loved going to Spain last year. Sun, beach, pools. That felt like a real holiday to me. I guess I'm stuck in that mindzone that getting out of the country is the recipe to a real vacation, even though many people never experience that.

I know it sounds a bit petty But it's just something I've been thinking about. Me and my best friend suggested going to London early next year, and I might ask her if she still wants to do that. It'd be better if the first vacation I went on without my parents was still within the UK, I think. Problem is it's pretty expensive, especially considering it's her first time going and I'd love to give her the full experience. If we book it early, though, we might get lucky. I hope she's still up for doing that...

[Tsuki]

I wouldn't say that's selfish Carl

And keep back to school today. Hope the kids don't jump on me too much

[UncoordinatedPisces]

There's been another shooting in America that has made the news? Jesus.

[it means no worries]

According to the sources i'm looking at these happen insanely frequently unfortunately.^

[Si-Amber]

I wish I was in London today. This looks fun!

http://www.radiotimes.com/news/2016-06- ... the-thames

[Marizzle]

There's been another shooting in America that has made the news? Jesus.

The worst is that this doesn't surprise me anymore. I wish it did, honestly.

[KopsTheTerminator]

It's not selfish at all KD, I don't think I realised just how lonely I was before I had someone like that.

Also... oh boy, here we go with the gun defenders. I couldn't even be bothered reading the entire post, it's always the same old.

If you want to see just how bad it is in the US, just visit this: https://www.reddit.com/r/gunsarecool

It posts every single shooting that happens in the US as well as articles relating to gun control. It's... disturbingly active with gun related death news...