by Carl » June 9th, 2016, 5:57 pm
I keep trying to be positive, to project good vibes, and to stop whining so much, but life makes it so hard on me. How am I supposed to feel hopeful and positive when it literally takes only a few hours for the mice to crap under my pillows again, and when I'm constantly in such crippling pain? I'm always limping these days and I'm becoming hunchbacked. I know people think I exaggerate my issues, physical and mental, but I don't. I don't like being a downer. I don't like feeling so miserable all the time. I just want to be comfortable and content, and all I need for that is to have a body that doesn't suck and for the mice to leave me alone. If I had that, having a job wouldn't be so important and I could afford to just do what I want for a career.
I'm so tired of waiting for this test. I need to get into graduate school NOW. It's the only way I can make things better, but it's still so long before the process of applying is complete. I'm so tired.