by Gaze » May 26th, 2016, 11:21 pm
well, I'm feeling unbelievably stressed and sad today.....in misery, one might say.....I am really doing TERRIBLY in school right now and am going to lose a LOT of credit and my prof probably hates me. I woke up w/ that in mind, plus some other stressors and some really dreary weather outside and now i just CAN'T stop feeling terrible....I spent ages taking a luxurious shower to wash away my agony, and then I laid a white faux fur rug down on the bathroom floor after applying lots of hair-care products and spent ages grooming myself and applying Chanel after-bath power and coconut lotion while sipping cheap wine and listening to the distant sound of some sort of field recording of ritual chanting that my roommate was playing in the living room on the cheap record player. it kind of helped, I guess.....but I still feel like curling up and SOBBING.......
I'm about to go meet up w/ my gf and go shopping for work clothes and shoes, but I am feeling like the only possible way out of this misery is to be irresponsible and spend a LOT!! of money. i'm on the hunt for a crystal nail file, a zootopia or lion guard toy, maybe some teriyaki, definitely some taco bell....Idk.....I just need to get a lot of material possessions and food today