Killjoy Dixon wrote:GeminiGemelo wrote:Really?I don't think I've felt the way I did in high school since... well, since leaving high school. Most of the worst days I've had since coming to college have felt trivial in comparison. Sure, there might have been a decently OK day every once in a while when I was in high school, but that does very little when you're feeling sad and down for weeks at a time.
If I magically had the option to trade what I had now to go back to my childhood, I wouldn't take it. I don't think I've ever even entertained that notion.
Most of the close friends I know IRL became significantly happier and better off once they graduated... which is kind of why I made that post. lol
You know this already, but I lean more towards Regs' comment, here. Except that my worst days in high school weren't even half as bad as my bad days have been since. And I used to be consistently content back then, whereas since leaving, well... not so much. Luckily for me, I'm starting to get some of that back lately, I think.
I'm kind of on the fence, but leaning towards liking University a bit more. It honestly depends on which era of high school (here in the UK meaning all the way from 11-18) we are talking about.
11-13.5: Stellar - a few minor hiccups
13.5-15: Grim - a specific set of girls (that I had never actually talked to before) said some pretty cruel things about me for no good reason over a 3 month period.
15-16: Pretty great - probably the best part for me in terms of personal happiness/friends/attainment
16-18: Dark. Darkest point of my life so far, probably, for multiple reasons I have already mentioned extensively. Worst point was probably September - December 2012. I honestly thought I was never going to be happy ever again. I posted sporadically here on MLK at the time and I find it very hard to look back at them now and realise just how bad a place I was in.
In terms of personal happiness, I'm liking University a lot more than high school. I haven't felt like myself in a long time, but I'm closer to that person now than I have been since I was 16. For a long time I felt like the bad things would just keep on coming, but so far this year has been kind. Things have actually been working out, it would seem.
I do miss the structure that school gave, though. I miss seeing my friends every single day all in the same place, for example. I miss being told where to go and when (oddly). I miss that sense my school gave us of being looked after. Being solely responsible for yourself suddenly is quite daunting and at first threw me off quite a bit.
Someone, please, save me from this. 
