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[Carl]

It's fine, Twin, you can talk about it if you want. Can't be more melodramatic than me, besides, eh?

[Marizzle]

MLK, the land where real & fake "drama" exist so much that it has become odd not to see it.
I'm kidding, of course. Just like KD said, you can talk about it if you want, GG.

[Gemini]

^ Hehe, possibly true. But thanks guys. Your support means a lot.

I'll probably be okay in a bit. Nothing much really to talk about aside from that, I guess. I just get like this sometimes, I feel like things are a bit hopeless and that I'm gonna die at some point anyway, and... IDK. It bothers me a little. I think some of it has to do with the fact that I've had people around me die unexpectedly for no reason and have nearly been in that situation myself. It's like I have this weird fear that everything I do is gonna end up being insignificant, and that I'm not gonna be able to accomplish all the things that I want to do in life because I won't live long enough. :|

It sounds... ehh, super morbid. But that's definitely a recurring feeling that I get every now and then.

Like I said, I'll probably be okay in a little bit, so don't worry too much about me. I just still get like this sometimes.

EDIT:

MLK, the land where real & fake "drama" exist so much that it has become odd not to see it.

That's definitely true. xD

But thanks again for the support, guys. My online friends have always been a big help to me. c: /3 Thanks for not minding it when I'm a bit negative. ^^

[Marizzle]

^I totally understand you. I haven't had anyone I knew passing away recently or suddenly, but, I do get what you mean, as it is something that also crosses my mind on my "sad days". Just like you, I fear that everything I'm doing now will end being useless someday. Sometimes, I also wonder if I shouldn't be spending my time doing other things "before my life ends". It's a "fear" of not having a full life, in a way.

[Gemini]

^ Yeah, I think that's definitely a part of it. I think we all feel that from time to time... sorry that you feel that way too. Of course, when I was a kid I was religious and believed in the afterlife and stuff so it didn't bother me but after losing touch with that and after seeing how death affects people it's sort of stuck in my mind a bit since then.

I guess I should do a bit more with my life here at college so I don't feel like I wasted any time. But would that even matter or make a difference? I can't really say for sure. Nobody really knows anything about anything, we all just kinda flop around in this world for a bit and struggle to live and do what we want to do and then we die anyway. :| So... IDK.

#existentiallifecrises x__x

[Tora]

Hope everyone is ok.

[Marizzle]

^ Yeah, I think that's definitely a part of it. I think we all feel that from time to time... sorry that you feel that way too. Of course, when I was a kid I was religious and believed in the afterlife and stuff so it didn't bother me but after losing touch with that and after seeing how death affects people it's sort of stuck in my mind a bit since then.

I guess I should do a bit more with my life here at college so I don't feel like I wasted any time. But would that even matter or make a difference? I can't really say for sure. Nobody really knows anything about anything, we all just kinda flop around in this world for a bit and struggle to live and do what we want to do and then we die anyway. :| So... IDK.

#existentiallifecrises x__x

You've said it all. I've got zero to add.

[Carl]

Think about it this way though, Twin: at least you can spend your life how you want to. Not all of us have that luxury. You're doing things you love, and you have great friends and you're having fun making things, and making memories, you can take care of yourself and it doesn't matter if you get to everything as long as you enjoy the ride. You have your passions and you can do them. Not to mention your genius boyfriend who's got it made so well he can worry about stuff in other countries.

It doesn't matter that you're going to die someday. That day isn't now and the things you have and are doing make it worth it.

[Marizzle]

^That's true!

[Carl]

It bothers me much more thinking about living for a long time unable to do things than it ever did thinking about not being able to do everything I want to before dying. What's the point in living if you spend all of your time staring at a TV or off into space?