Autism

[thelionpride556]

I'm sort of shy, but I don't have autism. My friend's little brother does, though.

I saw on the new a year or two ago a kindergartner got kicked out of school because he had autism. Isn't that just terrible?

[Chanzo]

[quote="Yatima"]awww~ My english is so bad, but I try to say something about autism that is facinating me!

There was a Guy that was an Autist and they took them over a big town whit a helicopter, after that they put him in a big room whit a realy big canvas.
It was so amazing... he could drew the whole town from out of his head!!! He could remember every importand building and so on...

I rad a article about, that autistic people have special skills in other ways as normal people have.

After I saw this guy I wished to be an autist, to be a better artist too! [/quote]I know someone with aspergers who is amazing at learning languages, they remember every single word & what it means. I have the ability to remember every tiny detail on some things (roads & computers mainly) although I wish I could remember things like languages, I'm crap at languages in school.

[Neon]

I have AS and Schizophrenia. I rarely have money for treatment. I tend to hallucinate and because of that I'm socially segregated from most people.

[Thani]

Whether you do have a disorder or not is not relevant in my eyes, it is your capability to accept it, deal with it, and to keep on going. As rude as it may sound, like cancer, you know it stays with you if no current technology or medicine is going to save you, and it will keep on staying with most for the rest of their lives. (Keep hoping: One day, cancer will be ruled out by proper working treatment! Time is our ally on this one!)

But do not let that get you down! Lately I was told (And I went furious about it for a couple of days...) that I was responsible for everything that happens around me. (No! Not by thanigraphics, but by my social-psychological-aid attaché (the person coupled to me for treatment.) Well, at first I was really exausted of all this in my eyes violent stream of aggressive behaviour singling me out as the sole reason of why things had happened, because I supposedly choose to let them happen in the first place.. "Yeah right! How the damn does anyone, and especially a prof at psychological stuff dare to rub things in my face like that?! Like I had asked for to be born with an disorder in my head after 7 month of womb-time..."

But.. As rude as this sounds.. People ARE capable of adapting themselves into any situation they deem best for themselves. Sometimes you'll take, sometimes you'll hand over. Same with arguements for example.. As thanigraphics already wrote earlier on: I occasionally do have fits. I go sulky and negative, introvert, and sometimes even physically violent to the extend that I did murder an innocent life, simply because I totally lost any last bit of control at that moment due to the nasty first time experience of being threatened to unseen violence by being shown a lifelike knife.

Now, my choice at that moment was to passively retreat to safety. And ofcourse I, and thanigraphics who was with me when that occured in my appartmentblock/social housing for aspergers, well.. we both went out of our minds. I kept demanding that person's removal afterwards until recently... Not that my psychological help is that bad... No.. In hindsight thanigraphics was right...! (edit: little memory leak.. my fault!) In times of war, all that dies is the innocent truth. And every person has his/her own truth, in the way they view the world they live in. But due to choices and sometimes inabbilities to recognize cues and certain non-verbal signals.. Well it tends to hang over to the explosive side.. If anything nasty happens in my life, I tend to think plots are raised against me or the ones whom I hold dear the most...

But in the end, on the long term, I cannot simply accept the fact, that in this nation, a hostile is being protected by the national law of this nation, and the victim is (as in my personal case) is asked to forgive, why? Because that hostile person said he cannot apologize well you can open your mouth to talk, so you can apologize in TG and my own opinion!), or atleast that is what my personal social-housing help said. Ofcourse they mean it well, and all they are trying to do is do their best to de-escalate a damn nasty situation.. And personally I don't even care to get that hostile's apology anymore. But... Even whilst he showed no aggression to me personally over time, he DID threaten thanigraphics herself, by visual communication methods, like pretending to slice a throat... Now all I want is apoligies from that hostile towards thanigraphics.. Not that I am completely satisfied if that ever happens, but life goes on.

But please do remember: No matter how hard life is for you, if you keep your head up, and keep focussing on positive things, no matter how minor they seem to be at the moment, time WILL be your friend. Oh, by the way, they told me that I am VERY vengefull towards those who threaten/abuse my inner circle! Forgetting the past is very hard for me... But, with keeping your head in the past, and sulking like "oh dear, look at me how bad a situation I am in..." Well.. There are always people whom are in a worse situation then you yourself. Not that your case ain't important.. I won't deny you your importance to those who know you, and to those whom you allow to let them know you. (choice...)

Hardships are a test of life, to see if you're up to reach another phase in your life. That phase is constant, it never stops. It is called agings. And I noticed that I grew softer as I outgrew my teenage years, when I compare it to what I am now (thanks TG!! *hugs*.. Believe me, I was -- And still can be (allthough I mean it well, trying hard to inform those directly in contact with me) a real pain in the bottom.. I won't deny that...! And to be honest, as my own approach is dialoge, it even resulted in no warning for sendings rather hostile warning signals per e-mail to my social-housing manager. Why? Because of my tendency to be honest and open. Glasnost and Perestroika as Gorbachev said it in the late 1980's!

And that openness and honestness is not something you should keep for yourself. There is no harm in informing those around you on the way you feel/experience things. Introvertion does not help... It prolongs the problem, and denies an eventual healing through positive ánd negative experiences. Life is not about giving up, but about going till the utter end of your capabilities! Just as TG told me.. In hindsight also this is true! (how fortunate to be an autie with an autie-expert as TG for a long-long-term-relationship partner )

Personally what I would like to advice: If you feel ready, go talk to just somebody by asking them if they have time to hear your story -- Did that myself openly on the street, whilst I thought I was suffering from halitosis (bad breath), which was indoctrinated into my negative young adolescent mind because I was too sensitive for everything around me... And I still am.. Yet.. Where there is a will, there is a way..! If I can overcome my fear of crowds by stepping into an overcrowded subway in Cologne (Germany) whilst TG was nearly collapsing under the sheer volume of people, and probably also the lack of fresh air.. (Sure had a lot of condensation in there....Yeah: Ewwww grosss!!!) But, luckily I had a worse experience before in the rush-hour train of just three carriages long.. All the way from Amsterdam Central Station, up North toward Krommenie-Assendelft (20 KM/about 17 miles?) North of the prementioned dutch capital..Lol yes, London, Chicago, Paris, Berlin etc. are waaaaaay bigger, just look at maps, and their size-ratio..I just love maps, and public transport, when it doesn't go wrong...)

Well, you see: A previous negative experience: Too short cramped rush-hour public transport train, and occassionally buses aswell. It did result in my grown immunity. Because I was bullied, I learned to be very passive, sort of like a ragdoll in some bad cases... Was openly assaulted by "popular" wannabe's who throught impressing others by humiliating/harming others is the way to deal with things... Yet again: Time is your friend! I would not worry about thinking of others if they would accept you or not. Some do, some not. And those not, are NOT worthy your attention, let alone handing them a sleepless night filled with stress in your head.

Oh PS: I do feel the need to apologize humbly because of my long rambling, but I kind of tend to get sucked into anything that is on my mind... I know.. I tend to overdo anything I do.. Heh.. Some call it perfectionism. To me it is rather confusing for myself, as I am able to explain the same thing in many ways.. Often people seem to take that as being reconned as plain dumb, and hence they feel a bit uncomfortable because of it... And yeah, I am notorious for keep on yabbing on for hours, when "triggered".. But I desperatly wanted to show you that having a disorder isn't neccesarily a bad thing, based on my own experiences... And just as with relations: If you wait long enough, and are open for change, then you'll be guided to your mate for life. But remember, you must keep on going on. And you'll never truly live alone... Good luck, and best wishes to all outthere.

Regards: Thani.

[Dutch]

I'm not, but I have a couple of friends that are.

[thanigraphics]

well said love!

[Sigurd]

I have Asperger Syndrome. It is very handicapping since it makes me asocial.

[Lauren]

I am a patient that has suffered from Austim ever since I was 18 months old. For years, I had social issues as well as behavior issues so I've had a lot of help from my parents, therapists, and doctors while growing up. Currently, I don't suffer from it as much as I used to years ago, but still have some social problems and motor ticks at times. I have improved a lot and seem normal for a person, but still technically have the Autism within me.

[Biomac]

I have Asperger Syndrome.

[Titanics Captain]

I have autism.