by Carl » January 19th, 2016, 4:27 am
Frustrated. I don't want to care about this stuff. My aunt told me she's going to start "throwing some money my way" since I watch her kid so much, so if I can get a part-time job or not I'll actually be financially useful, and able to buy stuff for myself from time to time. I'm so relieved/excited/cautious about that, and to be quite honest I could be and should be very content with that life. I don't want to have to leave home, I like being with my family and helping when they need it. I don't want to be forced to choose between the people I love again. And, here at home, aside from the mice, things are mostly good. So why won't my feels quit ruining it? I'm happy in pretty much every way. I don't want to go back to being sad and depressed again. Dammit... why do I find these European girls so fascinating?