by Carl » November 17th, 2015, 1:49 am
I'm feeling weird. The person I loved most and the person I hated most have both left this year, in the past few months... I don't have anyone to try to get to, or anyone to try to get away from. It's so strange after all of this time. I feel like I can finally be content, and since school's ending soon too, I'm wondering what I'm going to have as a goal now. I feel like I'm going to be restless, with nothing but survival to focus on. On the one hand that sounds great, but on the other hand... my friends are getting engaged, married, having kids, going to uni... and I don't want my life to stagnate. I miss being in love, and I miss having something to strive towards. I don't know. I guess conflicted is the best word. I'm not really sure what I want out of life or how to get there.