Dreaming,

[Ushujaa]

I wrote these on the folowing dates just posting them now

Thursday, 1/21/10

so they say that dreams mean somthing, well if that's so then i would like to know why my dreams are getting more and more realistic... almost life like,

It's gotten to the point where i'm afraid to sleep... i'm waking up crying earlier and earlier in the morning, my parents are thrilled, that i can get up earlier.

But i just need someplace to go... someplace where i can feel safe... To them that's clearview(my school), to me not so much... i mean really where can you be safe from your dreams.

I need sleep but do i dare enter that which i once desired most... my mind?

if things don't improve soon i'm fairly sure i'll be shot right off the edge i'm so dearly clinging onto...

still i need to find that someplace that i feel i'm safe to go to sleep and go back to way things were... before things went bad...

Friday 1/22/10

Tonight i had a half decent nights sleep i had the same nightmare, but it only occured once... just one time... the other half of the night i had a little bit more pleasent dream i'll try to focus on the better of the two nightmares

and hopefully... with my friends around to keep me distracted, the weekend will be half decent...