A Letter, R.I.P

[Ushujaa]

Dear Chessie,

it's been a very long, hard week... i feel like i'm caving in, and no one can save me, i mean honestley who can save me from my own dreams, i just wrote to get it off my mind...

it being the pain i feel,

i had a dream last night it was fall and i wrote this for you, because you were in my dream once more...

The leaves are changing from green, to yellow, to red, kind of weird... They're changing to match the colors of my emotions

Green the color of joy and happiness, up for anything the way i felt when you were here, with me...

Yellow, The color of fear, and despair... afraid to do things that normally would come easily to me, the way i felt when i thought i might loose you,

Then comes the color of red, The color of anger and lonliness...furious... The way i feel when i think of the years we could've spent together...

So what happens when the leaves fall off the trees? just somthing to think about...

Well i hope all is well i'm sure the view from up there is amazing, i know it probably beats the view of mine down here...

I miss you always and i can't see myself moving on anytime soon it's just to great of a pain, you won't be forgotten anytime your always on my mind

I love you always,
Dean
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I wrote this after i had a dream about my dog who recentley left me , the dream was so hard on me i wrote a series of letters to her i think might post more of them if i can keep myself from crying...

[Simbaholikov]

Ah, my friend, that was very touching, it is nice to see you honouring the memory of your dog, she will be happy to see that she has not been forgotten, as she will always be watching over you, to guide you

Keep going, it will be tough, but in time the pain will lessen

[Mike]

Aww, I'm sorry that you're missing your dog <3 Best advice I can give you: get a puppy. I know it might sound cold, but it really, really does help. I got alittle kitty when my cat died. And though they're not the same you find that you can move on.

[Ushujaa]

i've heard that before but alas my parents, have not... i'm trying to convince them but they think that it's disrespectfull *That's their opinion don't take offence to it* but i think i might suprise them with a new chessapeek bay retriever in september,

[Simbaholikov]

I wouldn't get a puppy yet, otherwise it would be seen as a 'Replacement' i've heard you should wait at least a year before getting another pet to honour the ones passed

[Ushujaa]

by september it'll be a few months short of a year, i'm just hoping they don't get mad at me... but i know once the puppy is in, there will be no turning back they won't try to make me take him to a pound or such

[SimbasMate]

Aw, I am very sorry to hear about your dog. I hope everything gets better, just keep your head held high! And, great letter.

[Sketchax]

so sweet<3 i'm sorry you miss your dog though<3

[Ushujaa]

Dear chessie,
Yet another sleepless night here without you,
it seems that everything i do reminds me of you...
i've got friends over and though i don't feel like being social much i have to keep it short...
I'll try to use my friends to distract me of the pain i feel,

Love you always
Dean