^Thanks, Julie, but I don't think anything will help me this time.

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I wish I could run to the library and get away for a couple of hours, but I can't leave those three at home alone, and my dad would probably really ground me from everything if I did. There's less than two months before I go to that one place for a week and then to Disneyland, but if he goes with what he said, then he probably will ban me from talking to anyone - including my friends - and I will be stuck in a hotel room all day for the four days that they go to Disneyland and Universal, with nothing to do but look at the ceiling while lying on the bed... Such a sad, sad life. But I can't do what he requires me to do with everything because I don't know how. And he always finds one little thing wrong every day - something to yell at me for. Because doing it the best I can is never good enough for him. I bet if I had cancer, he wouldn't even feel the least bit sorry. He'd say it was my fault and that I deserved it. I know I probably shouldn't be thinking so negatively, but what other choice do I have in this situation? None. Because how can I have a future if he takes away school and friends?