by zerodix » June 20th, 2015, 8:42 am
how am I feeling? well that's a good start to introduce myself a little more, since I only posted 2 times here, and I must say, I do kind of like this place.
Well, to start, I am a bit older than most of you, I am 29 years old.
I have been through a rough time, now I am Climbing out of the "hole" as we say it in my native country.
I lived together with my feyonce for 5 years, and for the same amount of time I stephmothered his two sweet daughters. I kinda saw them grow up.
Last november, my feyonce got ill. He did not get better. He is not dying or anything, but he had a psychosis (I hope that is the right word for it) He was things that weren't there and went more and more anxious. In the mean time he spent a lot of money. In january, things got out of hand and I moved in back with my parents. It was not safe to live with him anymore. I live in Holland, and Healthcare here, especially mental health care, is beeing destroyed by the political parties we have here. They don't care. just don't care. So my feyonce became my ex, he stole money from me, a lot, so I was in a very debt.
Then I went to a social worker for myself, since I was very tired and depressed of it all. After 3 weeks at home I started short shifts at work. That helped a lot. After 2 months, it was april, I met my current lover. He handled me the key of his little summer vacation home (he comes from a similar situation) and now we are together.
It has been a rough time, I am doing better and everybody around me says I am very strong. But it will not be easy and, even though I am very glad with my current lover, someting inside me is broken and cannot be fixed.
Well, that was about it.
missing the old deviantart...