by Adofo » April 6th, 2015, 12:57 am
Hamadou: .....I think....me and Chaltuu are over. ......She didn't say it.......But i know she's thinking it. ......I just wanted to spend a few days alone with her.....giving her some romance.......showing her how much I truly love her! ......But I screwed it up. 90% of the time I talked, she got mad at me. At first.....it was about cubs. Why she didn't want them. I just asked why not.....and she exploded with anger saying that I'm trying to trick her to have cubs or even forcing her! ......Then we got into a big fight about.....me just wanting her to be better. For her to not feel like she has to be mean to everyone all the time. That your father made her like that. That he made her think she had to hate everything just to survive! ......But she took it as me wanting to change her because I didn't like her for her. And then........I wanted to mate with her. She said no. ......And I got said because.........more than anything in my whole life......I wanted us to mate....look each other in the eyes.....and only see ourselves...as one being! I wanted to be apart of her. ........The one thing I wanted my entire life more than anything, to be one with my soulmate.......and as soon as I finished talking, she says no like there was no chance of anything like that Ever going to happen. And she got even angrier because.....she said I'm just trying to make her do things i want her too. Like I own her. But I don't! I just........I want us to love.....to be happy......like other couples I've seen! They look at each other....happy to see each other......they kiss....hug.....do everything together.......and all they want to do is make the other one happy! But.......I just want something.......any small thing........and Chatluu takes it as a command. .....I just want us to be in love! Not just love each other! ...There's a difference. ..........And after all that..........she'll never look at me again.....and think to herself, "I love him! I'm so glad I became his mate!". .........It's over. ...............I lost the one I could ever hope to love.