by KiarasMate » January 8th, 2010, 1:22 am
Following Simba down into The Grasslands, Zina kept her strides timed with the graceful looking king’s as she heard his statement. Taking a moment to try and compose herself before she would reveal her past to him, as the white furred Shaman was never very comfortable when it came to talking of such matters but knowing that being truthful towards Simba would be the first step to winning favor with him, zina swallowed hard before she spoke up in a quiet voice.
”Okay, well, prepare yourself for a sob story if you’ve ever heard one King Simba. I’m not telling you this to gain your sympathy though, so please don’t take it that way. I’m merely telling you this because I want to show you that I have nothing to hide from you or your pride.”
Taking another minute or so to mentally prepare herself for what she was about to say, Zina slowed her pace slightly, now that they had traveled far enough away from Pride Rock so that she knew her words would only be heard by the king. Taking a deep breath, Zina started.
”Well, I was born into a pride that resides far from your lands King Simba. My mother and father were the rulers of the lands and were very well respected by each and every pride member. My mother was the head Shaman within our pride and my father, well, he was mainly the brute force to protect our lands. Being born with such a peculiar fur color, the odds weren’t in my favor from the start. My mother despised me because there was no way I would have been able to be a productive member of the hunting party and that meant that the only good thing I could do for the pride, was to take up being a Shaman. She didn’t like this fact either, as her self-centered ways tended to get in the way of her actually loving me as a daughter. She mostly saw me as competition, and this fact grew more and more apparent as time went on. My fur color wasn’t seen as a bad thing by the local pride males and this fact just ticked my mother off to no end. The fact that her own daughter got more stares then she did, it drove her to bitter jealousy. On top of that, it seems like I was a natural Shaman from the start as my skills quickly surpassed those of my mother’s, only adding fuel to the proverbial fire that was already burning. By the time I was about four seasons old, she had had enough of me and was determined to get rid of me in any way she could. This culminated with her taking me out on what would seem like a typical herb hunt, but would end with her trying to kill me. That’s where I got my scar along my neck from. I’m sure you saw it yesterday, as it’s rather hard to miss when I’m not wearing my herb pouch at least. Fortunately enough for me, my mother failed to check if I was completely dead or not, instead, she merely left me there, assuming I’d just bleed to death or something. My will to live was too strong by that point and with a bit of luck and a hell of a lot of determination, I managed to pull through. I obviously couldn’t go back to my pride though, as it was clear I wasn’t wanted there. Thus, I became a Traveling Shaman and was on my own from then on. For the next eight seasons or so, I traveled from land to land, learning anything and everything I could about Shamanism from the local prides and believe me, being a lioness on your own, it’s rough.”
Taking a quick break from her story, to allow Simba to absorb everything she had told him, Zina paused where they were, which happened to be a nice secluded patch of grass. Taking a seat as her voice shifted to a slightly less comfortable tone, the white furred lioness continued her story as her eyes averted from Simba’s gaze momentarily.
”You might have noticed that I left my father out of the picture thus far. Well, if you really must know more about him, I warn you that it’s not pretty. Unlike my mother, My father actually cared about me, but not for the right reasons one would care about their own flesh and blood. To him, I was nothing more than just another one of his lionesses, expected to do what was bid of them without question or resistance. At first, it didn’t seem out of the ordinary. I had seen other cubs being nuzzled and licked by their father’s and they seemed happy enough, so I never protested when my father did those sort of things to me. It wasn’t until I was about three seasons old, did things take a dramatic turn.”
Faltering slightly in her words at this point, Zina had to take a minute to reestablish herself before she was able to resume speaking, her body clearly showing just how unsettled she was by what she stated next.
”I woke up one night and found my father laying next to me. The minute I opened my eyes, I could tell there was something different about him. The look in his eyes and the scent that filled the air of the den we slept in, it all brought a cold shiver to my spine. I was about to speak, when he covered my mouth with his paw and told me not to make a sound. Utterly confused and a bit scared at this point, I simply nodded and watched on in disbelief as he pushed me onto my back. Everything seemed to happen in a blur after that point. I felt his large body on top of me, blocking out my vision. All I could see was the underside of his chest and stomach. In an instant, my life changed as I felt the sharp pain of him stealing my innocence. It was the worst pain I had ever experienced and all I could do was scream and cry into the large paw that held my mouth closed. It probably only lasted a few minutes but for me, it felt like an eternity had passed before he finally moved off of me and let my muzzle go, quickly telling me that if I so much as screamed, that he’d kill me right then and there. Panic stricken and terrified, all I could do was watch as he left me alone, broken and sobbing on the den floor. This event would become a nightly ritual from then on.”
Try as she might, Zina found herself slowly breaking down as she sniffled and turned her head away from Simba as a single tear streaked down her white cheek, her voice trembling uncontrollably as she tried to finish her story.
”I hated him from then on. What he did to me was unforgivable and the worst part of it all was that my mother refused to listen to me, even when I came to her and told her about what he was doing to me, his own daughter! She told me that I was a lying b*tch and I had no right to say such things about her mate. I knew she knew about it though. One night she even walked in on him as he was mating me and she didn’t even seem to care. It was as if the two had planned it or something.”
Unable to control herself by this point, Zina’s voice faded away as her claws suddenly ejected and tore through the grass below her in a fit of rage, sending large clumps of earth and debris flying every which way as she let out a defiant roar before collapsing upon the ground below, her fore paws quickly covering her eyes as she whimpered pathetically, the sounds of her breath and the muffled profanities that left her muzzle, being the only thing that were audible from her by this point.