What are you thinking RIGHT NOW?

[S1mb4 D4 L10n]

Happy one month anniversary ccccc':

[Carl]

It's Wednesday already...Well I guess at least time seems to be going quickly. Maybe it will be six months before I know it... Come on March!

[Shadowfax]

Will it EVER, be my turn?

[Si-Amber]

^ What's up hun?

Can't wait to get back to Wales. Only 19 days to go now.

[Shadowfax]

^ Just to get over this whole anxiety lark and finally start my own family with Jamie. But it feels unreachable at the moment. Issues keep arising and just seems the harder I try, the more I get kicked back or the more things try to get in the way of it. Seeing all the happy newly weds and new borns all over my facebook at the moment is seriously depressing me lol. I want to be sensible and I will be, but omg. Wish we would be able to step in the right direction more. Think the whole fact that Bob has died is getting to me too, more so than I let on.

[Si-Amber]

^ Aaaw hun *hugs* You've just got to take that desire for a family and use it to fight back against your anxieties. You will find ways of controlling and managing them. I am so much better at dealing with things than I was a decade ago. You'll get there hun, you just need to keep focus on those goals.

[Shadowfax]

^ Thanks, will try. <3 Just doesn't help when you've got people like my nan going 'When I was your age I was married and had two children' Heh.

[Si-Amber]

^ Yeah, times were different then. Both my nans were 19 when they had my parents. My mum was 27 when she had me and 30 when she had my sister. Me and my sister are still childless in our 30s. Some family friends had their daughter in their 40s.

[Carl]

But it feels unreachable at the moment. Issues keep arising and just seems the harder I try, the more I get kicked back or the more things try to get in the way of it.

Wish we would be able to step in the right direction more.

These exact things apply to me too. Everything I'm doing trying to make the life I want seem to only hinder that goal and everything just keeps going downhill. :\

[Buffy]

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