by Regulus » June 1st, 2014, 5:14 pm
There's this thought/feeling/idea/concept/whatever or something that has been hogging most of my brain's idle resources, but I can't quite put it into words. It's like I've discovered and am currently experiencing something that cannot be explained using any common words in the English language. I can't even relate it to anything.
Not that it's bad or anything. It's kinda like something from a dream, almost. I feel like I've been dreaming, like I've been exposed to something so weird and unrecognizable and my brain is trying to make sense of it. It's like this strange, curious desire to explore this strange thought that I have, like a memory... but it's not a memory. It's more like the fragments of a still image. It's more like an idea than a memory, and it's incomplete...
Am I just crazy, or has anyone else experienced this before? I know I've felt it before, but it's pretty rare when it happens--I don't think it's happened any more than 5-10 times in my entire life. The last time it happened was about two years ago. Usually, I feel like this and then my mind changes completely to acquire a new interest, desire, philosophy, or hobby. Looking at it that way, it's like... I think this is what happens when my brain changes on a true, physical level. I get this weird feeling.