What are you thinking RIGHT NOW?

[SophieCub]

I hope he comes out with us on Friday.. I want to get to know him better. c: Might be a bit awkward though.

[AdAstrα]

I don't even know anymore.

[Shadowfax]

Just bought the materials for my Lightning sword. Cannot wait to start making it with Ez ^-^

[Si-Amber]

I wish people would have more positive attitudes. Negativity breeds negativity. Positivity breeds positivity. People can't start to be happy unless they embrace a positive attitude.

[Shadowfax]

^ You know.. I tried that, but everything just goes wrong. That's life. I will pick myself up eventually, but being denied pretty much everything you want in life and even when you try your utter hardest to get what you want and you still get kicked back CONSTANTLY it does kinda put you in a bitter and angry mood every now and then.

[Si-Amber]

^ The thing is though, if you want to stand a chance of achieving great things in your life, you need to get past the bitterness and anger (and yes I know you've been through a horrible time with your family, but bitterness only destroys). I know this, because in my early 20s I was very negative, bitter and angry and it got me nowhere apart from endless breakdowns. Somewhere along the line, I turned round my attitude to life and it makes the knocks so much easier to deal with. I have the odd wobble, but I quickly sort me out. You've been constantly up and down the last couple of years with pretty much the same problems. Yeah, the government isn't perfect, but your situation is also down to life choices you have made. You chose to move out with your boyfriend when you are not financially stable and you kind of have to accept the adult responsibilities that come with that. I'm not exactly in a well paid job, but I live within my means and don't do things I can't afford. I budget carefully each month, knowing how much money I need each month and paying everything by direct debit so my costs are the same each month and there are no nasty surprises. Posting on the internet about how bad / hard your life is, is not going to sort out your life. Some counselling for the things you've been through and a permanent change of attitude would be a good start.

I'm not saying this to be harsh. I'm saying because I care about you and because it saddens me to see you plunging in to despair every other month. You've got a lot going for you, but it's down to you to make your life in to what you want it to be.

[Shadowfax]

Honestly Si, I know your only trying to help. But it's really not as easy as just adopting a positive attitude for me anymore. You really don't really know half the story or half the things I have to deal with now and why should you or anyone as it's my problem. Counselling will not help. My sister has to pay for her counselling as there was a 10 month waiting list with the NHS, that's how crap our countries services are. And there is no way I can afford sessions myself. If I had my way i'd be out working in New Zealand something i've wanted to do for ten years, but alas... Poor health and no money says no to that. Anyway, there isn't really much point in discussing this anymore as it's not really going anywhere. I am sorry if my vents have upset you... it's the only place I can really vent as my family and others are too preoccupied with their own problems so. But if it annoys, I will stop.

[mamaprince]

I'm Very Annoyed.

[Arbystrider]

I should open the windows more often, I lke the smell of fresh air.

Opening windows while using Windows.

[Shadowfax]

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