What are you thinking RIGHT NOW?

[Carl]

If I don't get to feeling better soon, I'll have to just miss work today. No way am I gonna spend an unknown period of time there with flu-like symptoms.

[xKendo]

^Get better soon! Hope you have a well deserved rest tho

Hey, I'm doing alright, thanks. The way I'm feeling isn't 100% bad or anything, just for some reason lately I've kinda missed being in a relationship and it's been on my mind a lot. I kind of wish I could find someone again, but I don't even really know who that'd be or where'd I'd find that or where I'd even begin. Like... I know you're not supposed to go looking but I feel like it's so hard to find someone you can have a deep emotional connection with who also reciprocates.

I'm not super close with very many dudes (most of them are taken or it's just platonic), and all the girls I really care about are straight...

And I don't exactly want to be in a relationship with someone I don't care about. So it's a weird situation. Aha.

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I thought our marriaged meant something
Okay jk, but agree. I'm not saying I'm always on the "look out" for a relationship nor I think I know how to be in one tho.
It's just how I look at people, all happy with their partner, and I think to myself "Am I capable of finding someone that makes me that happy"? I have my bff who makes me seriously happy but I can't do "couple stuff" with her. (Or you can, it all depends on you) Some people think I'm "jealous" which is not the case, I'm just sad that I haven't find someone yet.

I know you're not supposed to "look for it" (like older people say) but I'm not a person of waiting lol Either way, there's so many cons and pros of having a partner that it makes me confuse. With my parents divorce I started asking myself what, in fact, is love? Some say it's a pure feeling that you feel only for your "soulmate" (just like those fairy tales), others say it's a feeling that comes and goes (which I believe it's true).

Relationships, like Carl said, come and go as well. I guess that, in the end, what matters is that you are happy.

My issue, besides what I've mention before, is that not being in a relationship not only affects your way of thinking but other people around? I mean, all kinds of thoughts cross your mind ("Am I worth someone's "love"?"; "Why am I the only one still single?"/"Why does noone shows interest in me?"; "Is there something wrong with me?", etc, etc) and all the "When will you get a boyfriend/girlfriend?", "You don't have a partner so you don't know how this is!" and wtv lol

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She's back! Gosh I was so worried about her. I have mixed feelings about this, especially cause I was starting to hate myself. But glad she's safe and sound ;_;

[Marizzle]

I just got Pokémon Sun but I have homework to do. WHY.

[Elton John]

My God.

Moana was great. Out of the past three Disney princess films, Tangled, Frozen and Moana...Moana was the best one.

......Zootopia was better tho.

Disney is killing it this year. Cap CW, Zootopia, Dr Strange, The Jungle Book, Petes Dragon, Moana... all good-great. Rogue One looks good too.

[Regulus]

Oh... so that wasn't mine? Damn.

[Shadowfax]

Due to chest pains and a headache, I have stuck with tea as my beverage this evening. I needed a glass of wine after today, though. Bleh. Guess i'll get on with some Christmas shopping.

[Si-Amber]

Walking the 5 miles home at 11pm tonight, because I'm not forking out for another taxi.

[Shadowfax]

That's another five presents bought. Alot of them i'll be buying in stores this year. Hopefully first week of December as I don't want to be caught up in the Christmas rush when it comes to shopping. Working in it four days a week is bad enough.

[Carl]

Hopefully taking it easy today will make tomorrow less bad, since I can't call out again.

[Squeely]

Holy crap this Fire trial is insane! Torracat didn't have anything good to hit em with, Pikachu got off paralysis and that was about it. Rockruff is my only other team member. He held out the longest, but was weak from all the previous battles. I might have scraped a win had I been able to heal in between, but I wasn't, so...

Gonna have a look at my TMs to see if there's anything Torracat gets that'll help. Rockruff is only a couple levels away from evolution, and I might just have to get him there.