I always end up crushing on people who live in other countries someone help me

Actually I think I may have figured this out. Maybe it provides security? Like, since I'm so slow at progressing things, I can take my time to prepare for things and get comfortable with the idea of each stage of stuff if they're far away. Of course the downside is I don't want to do what I did before and go through all that long-distance stuff, but I think I'm starting to understand why I keep getting interested in people who are oceans away. This kind of thing is good to understand, probably.
Either way it's fine, I don't really want anything to go anywhere until I'm more comfortable with me anyhow, so it's just kinda weirdly fun?
inb4 I'm crying in a week lol