Adofo: Well...two things.....the first thing is.....that I hurt her.....i know she forgave me but.....I can never be able to forgive myself for that. Thats just.....the worst thing you can ever do to the love of your life. And the second thing is.....she's been getting weaker and weaker carrying litter after litter. I never wanted to hurt her! I just.....wanted to show her how much I love her. .....Now that I look back on it...it was just a stupid idea from the start. I used to blame myself for stupid things that I had no control over.....but.....there's no way around this. I physically hurt my soul mate...and I put her through so much with not only going through the pregnancy's and giving birth but...doing it one after the other putting her own life at risk. .....You know...can I tell you something.....sometimes I wish we would be divorced just so that....so that she can be with someone who truly deserves her.
(That last part is more towards being romantic than trying to be sad)
