another Sad truth of my life.

[Leviara_Lioness]

Well sadly i found another sad truth today, of my life..... daddy lion had been doing research lately on me, and my irl mom/my (birth records), which he has..I'm in his custody, legally but he found out, through national/international authorities, I'm (not legitimately) his cubby lioness..., though I've said I was his, he thought so too, I found out my irl mom had lied on the birth papers about me, of who my RL daddy lion was, by putting my current dads name on them falsely.... , dad lion and I do not yet know of the dad that matches me genetically, I may never know. I have to live with that.. but I do not match paternally genetically my (adoptive father) who is my current father at this moment..

Yeah ... so that came out at lunch time...that pretty well killed my apatite.. I felt really anxious and ill all day after , i heard the awful truth..of my now (Illegitimacy) to any one other than my rl mom, who left me 10 years ago...I now wonder whom I'm really a part of.. I think it may be true why my irl mom left me 10 years ago, she knew this day was coming, I'd find out i'm NOBODY's cubby lioness...... yeah well thats ok , anyway I know how the OutLanders feel... its really not fair.. but life isnt always fair...I've come to know... .... i reely want a hug right now.......

Ok, although I'm happy to say, I've got at MLK (Hatada RP Daddy Lion) two new mom's, Medhu mommy leopardy, and today ShadowFax (Shadow). and Awesome sisters, Kiki (MadamLestrange) (GothPrincessKiara)(Kiara or Goth) and Saskia (_TravelerBlu_) and Kiana too So yes theres at least a bright side, to this whole thing!

Well i'll be off everyone, and derping around MLK.. see whats all going on.. I have a notion to go into the chat room, but I'm not too sure about it atm??!
plus nightly snack is in 24 mins, as it 23:06 ...

[lionobsession]

We're your family. Anyway, I feel the person you are shouldn't be measured by your parents, real life or adoptive. It's measured by who you are, what you do and how you live your life.

[FeatheredSeclude]

You are what you choose to be, know one but you can change that.

And blood or not, your dad loves you, your mom loves you. I see no reason to have second thoughts on this. And if anything needs to be worked out, it's between them, not you. And pray it goes well.
And frankly, that would be one hard thing to even talk about, especially to family. Likely one of the hardest things to talk of.

I've gone through so much in my own life, abusive father beyond all reason, I hated him. To the point of biting a piece of meat off of his leg when I was kid. It's not a thing to brag on, it's isn't a part/the start of my life I like. I was glad when he was hauled away.
I've gone through and dealt with things far worse, pains when I felt them, I sincerely wished killed me. But I am glad I didn't let it. I had my whole life in front of me, why would I give that up, even if harder times layed in the wake. Life is nothing to pass up. Life, family, should not be taken for granted, they often are. That infuriates me in more ways than I can count. I've fought for everything I have, granted you can't win everything, and a lot of times, you honestly won't. But You can't let this hold you, live for the good moments in your life, even if they are accumulative, they're worth it.

You need someone to talk, I'm free to talk at anytime.

[Leviara_Lioness]

Wow I'm so sorry this was happened to you .**huggs tight** Yeah i agree, completely. Daddy Lion say he doesnt care what mom lion did, he knows she too still loves me, obviously, he still loves me as his own, so I'll try to make good of it with him. Yeah i'll chat with you and others about things. I appreciate you're comment, i really do! **huggs tight**

[Leviara_Lioness]

I agree You Guys ARE My Family here at MLK **huggs tight** ! Yeah I see that too, I guess I'm so legalistic and systemised at times I guess it gets in the way of whats important..Daddy lion too say, he dont really care about the papers, he still really loves me, and will as he said this morning treat me as his own, not cause blood or papers claim it, cause his heart loves me. I'll try to do my best to make good of it! Thank you for helping me see things too, in a better light.

[FeatheredSeclude]

That's good to hear! Excellent infact! *returns hug using correct thingies this time* lol

Well, whatcha wanna talk about?

[Leviara_Lioness]

Well since you asked, I need to know how to build relationship with him, I mean we share things in common, but as for getting close thats where I'm having a tough time, though I know he loves me! Oh you can PM me about this at MLK forum, in my box, or we can chat about it here?! I've nothing to hide.

[FeatheredSeclude]

Spending time with him, doing stuff together, is about all that needs to be done to get close to someone.

Just spending time with him is about that is really needed, just don't force it too much, and odds are, he'll dive for the chance.

[Leviara_Lioness]

Ok, I'll do that, as I'll try hard, and he says he'll try hard too, we'll both work together at it, then if things get too intense We'll back off, then go at it again. This wont be an overnight thing, we both know that, but it will be worth it it!
**huggs tight** Thank You SO much!

[FeatheredSeclude]

returns hug, I sure hope so!