RIP Sarahmercury

[Timitu]

I don't really know what to say or where to start with this. Most people probably have no idea who I am talking about. And that is fine I guess. She has not posted on here, or anywhere for a long time. But she was my friend in RL.

The last time we talked, we argued. She was really upset about a lot going on in her life and I was frustrated that she was not taking more of a stand to change it. This argument ended when I felt too frustrated, that I would say things the wrong way and wanted to step away. I hung up our skype chat and told her to go for a walk and we would talk when she cooled down. That was the last thing I said to her and I am still not sure if she saw that as she went off skype shortly after.

The last few days I have been busy with my own health problems and school. I never once thought that I that was the last I would hear from her. Today while I was trying to celebrate a Friday, watching my favourite TV show, having a drink and eating some chips, I got a message from her father. My friend had taken her life last night. My best friend had taken her life. I would never get to talk to her on skype. I would never laugh at the silly things she came up with. Such an inspiration to my art she was. She may not have drawn a lot but she was creative. She would give me all kinds of great idea. She was the secondary mastermind behind Levar. She was his number one fan.

Now I sit here, still very much in shock. Hoping I can get my mind off of things while I watch my show tonight.

(PS. If this is a joke I would be surprised. Her dad is not immature at all like that. And neither is she, she knows what is right and wrong and to have gotten all her family to play in on this and say RIP on her facebook is not something she could have done at all. I would be surprised. Though I would give anything to hear a "Just Kidding" message from her.)

So I guess this is it... RIP Mercury.

http://fanart.lionking.org/Artists/Mercury/
http://www.mylionking.com/fan/art/Artists/Sarahmercury/
http://1mercury1.deviantart.com/

[NightDaiana]

no mercury!

[Adofo]

Nora I'm really sorry!

[Adimu]

Oh, I'm so sorry. That really is shockingly scary. Something really must have been bothering her...

[Timitu]

It had been for years. She posted a real warning on facebook but everyone just thought she was quoting lyrics and she did that on a day I was gone all day so I did not see it till it was too late. Even still when I saw it I too thought she was just quoting a song. Never once did I realize what probably by that point actually happened. If only she knew she had lots of people she could have talked to. She has a large family, most of which she took in to her house when they had no where to go. It is really hard on them I am sure.

[Timitu]

It will be a long time before I see it as reality. It is crazy to think my friend is gone. You never think that will ever happen. We used to joke about how she would go before me. I always said she was younger then me so I would die first and she would have to go to my funeral... not the other way around. I never expected this in a million years.

[Timitu]

It is super sad and still a huge shock to me. It is hard to believe when we had so many plans coming up.

[snowflake754]

Awww I'm so sorry Timitu, that's very tragic and sad to hear. My deepest sympathies to you and your friend's family honey, i hope you feel better in time sweetheart.

[Kipekee]

She is watching over you and is in a better place, just like all of my siblings... I will include her in my prayers tonight.

[FeatheredSeclude]

Ouch.... I really am not really good with this type of thing. My suggestion would be to do something you love doing... if she is really gone, try and go to her funeral, if possible... your best bet is to hope she is in a better place, and carry on in your life.
I hope this wound heals for you.