What are you thinking RIGHT NOW?

[Si-Amber]

This has been the longest break I've had from work, and it's still gone by too fast.

[Carl]

How bad is it that I started it only a few hours ago and already am starting to feel the weight of futility upon my shoulders? That already a naggling voice in the back of my mind is murmuring, "why even bother? No one cares how frustrated you are with life, and no one cares what you think. You're just wasting time that could be spent in a more productive manner, even if it's just convincing yourself there's something pleasant in life."

I'm not sad anymore, but is it possible I'm still suffering from depression? Have I failed to overcome it after all? Or is the stress of life just taking that much of a toll on me at this point? There are an awful lot of people relying on me, after all...

I don't know anymore. But I do know that I need more alcohol. The none I have just isn't going to cut it this week.

[Kiana]

^ I know how it feels, quite honestly. I feel like that a lot, I'm depressed, yet I'm not sad. Its like a hopelessness, that nothing even matters, and there's nothing to look forward to. These feeling are provoked a lot by the stress of school, and the pressure I've been feeling, and breaking under. What helps me, is just thinking about all the good times, and that those kinds of days will come again, and its not the end. Sometimes i feel like I'm just riding along on life with nothing to show, sometimes I wonder whats kept me here and I haven't ended it, but whatever it is there's some reason. I just don't know what it is yet. Okay so I hope that slightly helped? I'm so bad at advice, but you aren't alone, we're here for you.

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This freaking headache, Its here, then gone, then here, then flippin' gone again! Like, come on, stupid bi-polar headache ....Did I mention I have a headache?

[Carl]

^ Yeah, I know what you mean. Honestly, most of the symptoms of depression I once felt are gone now. Which is why I've been convinced for a while that I beat the depression. I never feel worthless or sad, I actually enjoy things, I'm usually not lethargic... but I am always angry, frustrated, and often feel like there's no point in anything. I rarely see a point in trying to accomplish things I want because I just expect failure. And I'm not sure how much of that is just because life is so absurdly difficult, how much is related to my anxiety, and how much is something else. The only thing I really do know is that if I didn't have to be constantly struggling just to get by, that I'd be fairly okay. It wouldn't make everything better, but it'd be enough. And I know that because I lived that way for a couple of weeks and I wasn't miserable during that time, even though things weren't what I wanted them to be.

[Ultra Fox]

I ****ing hate my manager at work.

[WildSimba]

I ****ing hate my manager at work.

She's not nice, that's for sure.

[Marizzle]

I hope that the prices of other game consoles lower when Switch comes out. I can't afford paying 300€ for a PS4 right now.

[Carl]

They're wider than I thought they would be. That's interesting.

[Buffy]

I should be getting more housework done, but I'm gonna take a second to game because honestly if I don't I'll go crazy and have a mental breakdown.

[Ultra Fox]

I hope that the prices of other game consoles lower when Switch comes out. I can't afford paying 300€ for a PS4 right now.

Unfortunately, the Switch probably won't affect prices of the other 2 big consoles for a good while since they already compete price-wise.