What are you thinking RIGHT NOW?

[Carl]

I think I wanna work on my book today if I can. I think I have a greater understanding of some of my characters now.

[Buffy]

Ugh allergy season is just so bad. Wish there was a cure.

[Marizzle]

[quote="xKendo"]^Wanna fight? :v [/quote]
Bring it on!

Or, not, 'cause we'd be spamming this thread and nobody wants that so...yeah, that's truly what I'm thinking right now.

[Simbaholikov]

[quote="Killjoy Dixon"]@ Kay and Amber

Spoiler: show

Yeah, I see where you're coming from, and I fully expected to get sore all the time, especially in my back which is usually sore anyway because of... stupid body stuff. I also expected to have trouble out of my bad leg since I can't wear my brace for it to work, but I never would have anticipated that my foot on that leg would go numb for over 22 hours. I had to call out this morning on account of not being able to stand long with it like this.

I also did technically receive a check already, but it doesn't really motivate me much. I don't get paid enough to buy stuff and pay on my loans and save for surgery, which honestly leaves me feeling like I'm going nowhere and will hate myself forever. It also doesn't get me closer to getting the right kind of work since it's not experience in the same field. I know quitting would be bad, but I'm just so fed up and the destruction of their illusion of caring about their employees didn't help at all.

I could talk to them about cutting my hours, and I might, but I don't think they're going to. Turns out the only reason they hired me is because they're understaffed on dish washers. They've got most of the other ones doing two or three shifts a day and tried to get me to stay longer yesterday when mine was done. They also replaced one of my days off with another 6 hour shift and tried to get me to take more shifts than that even. I'd be less bothered by it if my stupid body could do anything right, and I know normal people work that long all the time, but I don't know. I mean I barely get anything to drink when I'm there and no food or breaks either? Everything about it rubs me the wrong way.

I'd honestly rather never have money at all than work my hind end off and get so little I can't even try to reach the most important goal I have. What's the point of hating life more than I already do if it's not going to get me any closer to not being female? Especially with all my coworkers addressing me that way... I'm not suicidal or anything but I kind of want to just not be alive or just anything other than what I get.

I keep trying to see positives. I keep reminding myself that I'll be able to buy comic books or movies or games, and even trying to delude myself into believing I'll be able to go to things like Walker Stalker Con, but I struggle to find any of that worth this if I can't also work toward what's important to me.

And I also hope you get to feeling better soon, Kay.[/quote]

No job is worth someone's sanity. From experience I'd give it at least a week or two to try get into the routine of the work, usually when first starting a new job it feels absolutely awful because it's something new you haven't done before. That said the place you're working at does sound pretty bad, I'd suggest trying to talk to them about getting some actual breaks because it's absolutely against the law to deny workers breaks especially on long shifts. Perhaps talk to them about the possibility of shorter shifts due to medical issues too. Granted they might just fire you if you did that but at least you can say you tried, if they fire you because you asked for some basic rights it's probably for the best anyways.

I hope everything works out for you. Good luck.

[xKendo]

[quote="Marizzle"]
Bring it on!

Or, not, 'cause we'd be spamming this thread and nobody wants that so...yeah, that's truly what I'm thinking right now. [/quote]

Fite me anyways (๑و•̀ω•́)و

---okay I'll stop---

I'll just keep being lazy and do nothing the rest of the day.

[Si-Amber]

Psssst....Don't tell anyone, but I just bought myself a sneaky tub of Ben & Jerry's Cookie Dough ice cream to eat while watching the British Soap Awards.

#NaughtyButNice #IDeserveIt

[Shadowfax]

Thanks for the get better soon wishes KD and Si <3 I still feel rough, but as I'm still breastfeeding all I can take is paracetamol so it doesn't help that much D: I'll live though :3

That adaptor I bought seems to work well :3 Hopefully the bubba will be less congested tonight and find it easier to breath <3 I hate seeing her with a cold, my poor little baby girl. Nearly in tears last night listening to her all bunged up.

[KopsTheTerminator]

Supernachos with Mince?

I'll have 10 of this thank.

[SimbasMate]

I would do anything for some nice food. Like cheesecake and sushi.

[FlipMode]

[quote="Amber Kitty"]Psssst....Don't tell anyone, but I just bought myself a sneaky tub of Ben & Jerry's Cookie Dough ice cream to eat while watching the British Soap Awards.

#NaughtyButNice #IDeserveIt[/quote]

I'm doing the same thing I have an ice cream sandwich, though. But yep soaps are my time. I don't usually watch the soap awards because eastenders just wins everything but this year I'm not so sure. I don't keep up with them as much as I used to, to be fair.