What are you thinking RIGHT NOW?

[The Spirit of Life]

I'm very anxious to get the results of my chest x-ray back. My blood test came back completely normal, but I won't feel completely reassured until my x-ray results come back the way I want them to.

[Leviara_Lioness]

I'm thinking that it was a long warm, busy day of moving chores, despite throwing up 12 times between Breakfast and lunch, it went well otherwise .

[Carl]

Oh yeah there was that one application that I didn't finish that I was working on when I ended up going in for that other interview. I should finish it up tomorrow. I can go back to looking for remote data entry things too. I need to make things right and this is not going to do that. I can't quit without having something else to go to though.

I will do this. I have to.

If I were just normal things would be easier. I might not be wearing a fancy suit and writing satire like I ought to be, but I'd probably be doing something less sucky than I am if I were just comfortable with being seen and a bit more confident...

Why isn't there just some way to just, fix me, so I wouldn't have to feel quite so pressured?

Besides, I'd like to actually be happy again and people would like me better if I was and they'd wanna talk to me more and as a result I'd be even less lonely and more happy and maybe... no, no, hang on, stop. No. Don't even think it. That doesn't matter, broski. Now stop rambling in public and go like, do something... maybe look for one of those better jobs you started this thinking of, eh? There is no magic way to fix things so it's just going to be... gross and stressful... work until you get yourself something preferable that will be a better help.

[Shadowfax]

^ When you know you're looking for something else, it makes work more barable. My fiancé worked at a tip once for two months. Worse job ever. He was forever coming home with injuries, breaking his phones and ruining his clothes. He did find something else though and is now a supervisor in a great company. You'll get there too :3

I've been up since 6.30am with bubba watching Land before time series. Lol. So pleased she sleeps through the night now ^-^

[linnea]

I am starting to feel sad....

[FlipMode]

You'll get there, Julius. Like Kay there was saying, we all have to do stuff we don't want to from time to time but as long as you're looking and more importantly taking action toward moving to where you want to be then yeah it's literally just a matter of time.
I mean I work three different jobs, two of which I love and one that I hate but I do because it's good social skills practice and stuff which is something I still struggle with.

Also try backtracking. Don't look at the goal as "I want to get a better job." Think of it as little mini goals you can do each day like "Okay what is one thing I can do before I go to sleep tonight that will help me toward finding a better job?" That really helps me with stuff like that. Y'know what they say "If you change the way you look at things then the things you look at change."


And on another note I'm not sure how I feel about being back in the UK lol at least it's a beautiful day out. I bought the sunshine back with me apparently.

[Queen Elsa]

I hope this doesn't charge me for every minute I'm on it. That wouldn't be good. But bringing it was a good idea, so I can check my email and stay up-to-date on everything. Otherwise I would have no idea what we're doing.

[Shadowfax]

I might go back to that forum <3 Seems some of my old buddies are still on there and I miss talking to them. Don't think it'll be quite as awesome as it was ten years ago, but nice to see they all stuck around

[Queen Elsa]

Don't talk to that boy about airplanes, or else he'll never stop unless he has to.

[Carl]

Thanks Kay, Flip. Yeah that sounds wise, little goals. I'll try that. :3