Okay. I want to talk to someone, and there's only one person that I can talk to. I don't want to both her, though. I already talked to her two days in a row. I don't think it would be good to make it three days in a row.... I hate how my family's teasing and jokes make me so emotional, especially when they joke about this topic. It was fine when it still brought me happiness, but now it doesn't, and it hurts. And it hurts that I feel like I'm getting farther and farther from my BFF because of this,. Even though my friend said my BFF knows everything, I never told my BFF about it, so it would be really weird to just bring it up. Ah, forget sleep. Unless I talk to her, the only way I'll be able to sleep is by crying myself to sleep, which rarely works anymore, and I hate doing it, too.

Hopefully she's not busy.