
I honestly don't know what to do and I'm not even sure why or if I wanna life anymore. I just want to make things better somehow and just relax for once and rest. I'm so tired. I'm tired of not making a difference and I'm tired of trying and I'm tired of everything. I'm so tired. I'm tired of feeling like a failure and I don't understand why things are like this or why no one's even trying to help.
Part of me is just ready to give up, and that part of me is beginning to grow. I don't know how to fight it anymore. What I'm doing just doesn't seem to make a difference at all.