by Carl » January 11th, 2017, 6:11 am
Frustrated, angry, and a little down. I've been trying so hard to fix this, and it hasn't worked, so I started trying to fill the void, replace what was... I've spent so much time and energy on that, and I'm only just now realizing it's a futile effort because that's not even what I want. My home life and career and all that has been in shambles for years, and now what little social life I had is in shambles too. I don't know how to make things the way they should be.
I've let people down. I've let myself down. Things never should have come to this.