How are you feeling?

[Shadowfax]

Tired. So very tired.

[Si-Amber]

Knackered, but excited.

[Marizzle]

Okay.

[Carl]

Weird.

Part of me is having a really great time lately living the way I did in high school during summer, which is to say, either spending my time alone in my room, in the mostly dark, listening to music, reading, writing, playing video games and occasionally drawing and watching stuff, or chilling with my brother while we both derp around in video games or play in the yard (this time with our little cousin). Also looking for work in there, but that's probly a given.

However, the other part of me is like "Broseph, you have friends, and you got used to having people outside of family. You like these people. You totes need to like maintain those friendships and maybe make more friends cos you're gonna be super sad and lame if you don't." That part of me feels lonely and wants to talk to people and suchlike, but I'm such a derpy loner I have no clue how to approach people and the other part of me is still like "FINALLY ALONE YES AWESOME," so I'm just sitting here like...

what do.

[Squeely]

^I say, try your best to strike a balance between alone time and friend time.

[Carl]

^ See, I know that, but I don't know how to do that second part, lol.

Also I'm feeling impatient about getting something over this window. As Skyrim won't stop telling me... "[My] vampire blood boils in the sunlight."

[FlipMode]

The days where I had friends and actually maintained friendships are gone.
Not in a bad way but in the sense that I can get along well with most people so everyone is a potential friend. Like as long as you're not just a terrible person who everyone hates anyway then I'll probably like you and that's that. No one is more of a friend to me than anyone else is really.
Because like I've made friends on here who I haven't talked to in years but the friendship never ends its just that people go their separate ways and I can respect that, it keeps you circulating and talking with different people which is what I like to do.

It's fun to talk, I like talking, as you can tell by how much I ramble on here. So I can just talk to anyone really. It's fun to get to know people.

[Marizzle]

Embarrassed. My lack of skills on Skype are just omg.

[Kiana]

SCARED. I learned today never to put a can of beans in a microwave. Its was like lightning in a microwave. Right before I was like, "Oh! If this goes wrong and i burn down the house, oh well!" Well, I take it back, BAD IDEA BAD IDEA. I put the beans back in the fridge and made hot-dogs instead. So much safer 0.0

[Carl]

The days where I had friends and actually maintained friendships are gone.
Not in a bad way but in the sense that I can get along well with most people so everyone is a potential friend. Like as long as you're not just a terrible person who everyone hates anyway then I'll probably like you and that's that. No one is more of a friend to me than anyone else is really.
Because like I've made friends on here who I haven't talked to in years but the friendship never ends its just that people go their separate ways and I can respect that, it keeps you circulating and talking with different people which is what I like to do.

It's fun to talk, I like talking, as you can tell by how much I ramble on here. So I can just talk to anyone really. It's fun to get to know people.

I wish I could be that chill, Flip.
Interacting with new people is hellacious for me though. In fact I don't want to meet new people, at all, which is kinda bad at this point in life, because, like you said, people just go their separate ways sometimes, lol. My mind really doesn't work like most people's though, so I take ages to warm up to people and start to trust them before I can talk about much of anything meaningful with them, and I am very much a creature of habit; I get really anxious/stressed when things change. So, ideally, I'd have a handful of people I'm close to who would be around somewhat predictably, so that things feel stable.

Unfortunately, by their nature, people are going to be unpredictable, which means I'm going to be anxious. Add to that the fact I'm awkward as all hell and can't make myself send people messages 90% of the time (largely because I can never figure out how to start a conversation), and the fact that people have a very difficult time understanding me, and everything social is way more complicated for me than it should be. I don't know why I can't just like, talk to people, lol.

I can apparently talk to the void of forums just fine, but actually talking specifically to another person, even via text, something about that makes me extremely anxious, and sometimes that doesn't go away even when I do know and trust the person in question.

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As for the topic, what I am feeling right now is antici...pation for the new Fear the Walking Dead episode.