that's so awful

I really hope you feel better. and I wish I could say I know how you feel, but there's no way that I can. something like this did happen to my cousin last year, except it was his best friend. they were headed somewhere, there was this random freak snow in April, the truck slid out on a bridge, they hit a tree, and the corner of an amp in the backseat came forward and struck our friend in the temple. he was brain dead and officially died the next morning.
life can so messed up like that sometimes. but I hope you can move on from the sadness this causes you and enjoy the good things in life. I know that sometimes it can hurt to think about being able to move on from losing a loved one, but moving doesn't mean forgetting them. it simply means getting over the sadness and depression that comes with it.
*big hug*