I'm not sure where to put this little confession/essay, so I put it here.
I feel strongly towards cartoons and "make-believe" stuffs, taking them very seriously, philosophizing all along. What follows expresses my feelings toward MLP:FiM and its relation with TLK in my brain. Vehement, I know.
It appeared to be sarcasm to me at first, when I found myself hopelessly in love with My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, in September, 2011, all because I bothered to check out what was with the “Ponyville Pavilion” on MLK Forum. This new love, to my despair, threatened to replace TLK in my heart, something I considered blasphemous and vowed to never commit. What a sarcasm it would be, I thought, if I would betray TLK due to MLK Forum! Despite some resistance, I sold a part of my soul to Equstria.
I confessed (figuratively speaking) to Ahieu, reread some Chronicles of the Pride Lands, but these didn’t help me resist the Pony charm. Soon, I was checking Pony art, downloading the latest episodes, and singing and talking the lines, with harsh compunction afterwards. An identity crisis ensued, when I sort of identify myself as Twilight Sparkle. I exerted great effort and kept myself 90% Kopa. (as you see, I’m probably also 5% Rainbow Dash now)
One day, I suddenly found myself doodling on a piece of paper about OTPs (one true pair) in MLP; that was it, I thought. I tossed it into the bin and pictured in my head leonine hippophagy, that is, the lions eating the ponies. But this imagination made me feel double-guilty and I cried. I couldn’t hurt the ponies; I just couldn’t without making myself more despicable.
As the Five Stages of Grief says, at first there’s “denial”, then after “anger”, “bargaining” and “depression”, comes “acceptance”. I sort of accept MLP now, consoling myself that I have not betrayed Mufasa, and that the Lion and the Unicorn can coexist in peace. But there is still the haunting thought, lingering, saying: you have changed, you are no longer the Kopa I knew, you betrayed your pride! I look at the stars for guidance, but to my horror, I found not the great kings of the past, but Orion, Ursa Minor, Canis Major instead.