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Gone, not sure how long.
August 3rd, 2014, 10:23 pm

I have been debating this for a bit on and off but I need to take a step back from everything. I am still not over Mercury being gone. When she was around she gave me all kinds of art ideas. I did not need comments or favourites to feel like I did a good job because most of the time we would talk about it and that was enough for me. I was exactly the artist I wanted to be. I did my pictures because I loved drawing. If no one else care for the picture it did not bother me one bit.

Lately I feel I have turned into the artist I never wanted to be. Someone who thrives off the comments and favourites. And I hate that about myself now. I am becoming depressed. Not because those two things are lacking as much as the fact that sometimes I feel in myself that is why I do it. And then I put hours into something and no comments or anything... The before Timitu would not care and I liked who I was before.

So tomorrow I head away on vacation for a few days. On August 15th I will post the last comic page that will be going up on here. I have only one other picture planned for before that day. I will just focus on DA for now. If/when I return to myself I will return here and post the rest of the pages that were made while I was gone.

I will come back and post about the secret santa if anyone is interested. I will not post a picture though to advertise, just a journal so keep watch.

I will remain active on DA but only for the comics and possibly photos if I take any I really like. I will continue to post on Facebook any sketches I do, on topic or off topic from the lion king world. Though I probably will not colour them too often for a while. I am going to start doing a lot more on my YouTube Account. And I will possibly try to get more active on Twitter within the next few months. Right now my life is far from interesting enough.

Links for all these are below if anyone has read this far. Feel free to watch me on any one of those places. I will watch back. (Just remember I am gone this week so I will add you by next weekend sometime if you add me.)

YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCg5Y1AaR-a8TWaxFxC4f8kg
DA: http://timitu.deviantart.com/
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/timitu.nora
Twitter: https://twitter.com/Timitu1

I wont say this is goodbye. I do like this place. Should I return to my happy artist self I will be happy to return and see everyone. But right now I think a step back would honestly be for the best. Thank you for your understanding. Hope to see you guys guys again soon.

~Timitu~

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Adimu August 9th, 2014, 2:35 pm

I just looked at the video. That's how you do it!!! What software do you use?

Timitu August 11th, 2014, 4:44 pm

For art I use mainly Photoshop CS now. Some of my older art ones on YouTube I use Flash MX as well.

For screen recording I use CamStudio now to capture my stuff but that may change if I find something that does better without making the files as big.

Gaming, I have an emulator for the Lion King that allows me to play Nintendo games. For Inherit the Earth (and most other older games I will do) I use ScummVM to run it.

LOL Not sure which video you saw so I thought I would answer for just about everything I do on there. (Editing is done with multiple programs. Mostly Windows Movie Maker but I did have another much better one I used in the past but I am not sure if any of those ones are on YouTube or not. )

Adimu August 11th, 2014, 4:45 pm

Oh okay. Thanks! That explains why you're so good!

Adimu August 4th, 2014, 6:51 pm

I understand. I'll miss your art, though. But, yeah, it probably is for the best. Take a break, you'll feel yourself again. Your still there just buried under grievous and sad feelings. Most people don't lose their best friends. I'm sorry. Don't you still love drawing? And I know what you mean about feeling depressed. Like everything's gone in your life and with nothing to do. A holiday is a fresh place to start. I hope you have fun and find what you're looking for.

Timitu August 9th, 2014, 1:38 pm

Thank you Adimu. Ya I just need a break. I don't know when I will fully be back I have a couple of pictures I want to do for this week before the comic at the end of the week which will be my last one for a bit. I had a great vacation but as usual coming back brought it all back. I think sitting at the computer is super hot temps adds to the stress.
Drawing has lost a lot on me lately. I enjoy it but no where near as much. Doesn't help I got artist block right now too. School starts back in a couple of weeks and I only have two classes. One of them is one I will probably cover my book full of doodles in and that may help a bit. (The other is a hands on class so no time to sit and rest and doodle.)
But yes, as I said it is more of a "See you later" and not a goodbye. I wont be gone I do not think. I am going to do more YouTube as that is a second passion of mine and I actually still enjoy it even without comments, likes or faves. Meaning I can still get the enjoyment out of it even if no one watches. And that makes me happy.

Adimu August 9th, 2014, 2:01 pm

Phew! My maths book is utterly covered with doodles, probably more doodles than numbers.So see you soon then. What's your YouTube channel called?

Timitu August 9th, 2014, 2:15 pm

OMG Mine was too. Thank god I am done math forever I hope. LOL. Because I am pretty sure I do not remember anything from my last class of it already. I somehow made it though that.
I go by Timitu on YouTube as well. I have two art videos planned for this week before I fully say goodbye but mostly it is gaming right now. I did The Lion King video game in there. Right now I am working on posting Inherit the Earth videos from one I did a while ago. I try to pick older ones that people here or other places may enjoy as well. Once I get a job in January I can actually get a few other newer ones that I do like and play them. Till then it is many of the older ones. But they have fun stories to them. I am also going to so some of The Sims 4 when it comes out as well as I do enjoy the Sims. I don't know how much of a series I will make it into but it might be something fun to do.

Here is my channel link in case you want to check it out. Though I will be posting some artwork videos and they are some of the pictures I plan to post here as well. So they will have links to it then as well.

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCg5Y1A ... axFxC4f8kg

Adimu August 9th, 2014, 2:26 pm

Thank you!

Gemini August 4th, 2014, 2:55 am

Hey, I know we haven't really talked much yet (or at all, really), but I want you to know that I did like your art and was happy to see your pictures. That being said, it is sad to see you go; however, know that I completely understand your motivation for taking a break for a while. I've felt the same way before and I know it isn't a pleasant feeling - I even took a few months off of FFn from my writing, even though it means a lot to me. So if you feel like you need to go on hiatus, then by all means, go ahead. We will be awaiting your return, but in the meantime, no rush, and I hope that you feel better soon.

- Twin

Timitu August 9th, 2014, 1:43 pm

Aww thanks GeminiGemelo. I will be back. I just need to do something that really makes me happy for a bit. YouTube really is something I enjoy and I could care less if only I enjoy it too. Which used to be how my art was. When I did art because I wanted to do art it really was great. I could spend 9 hours on something and feel happy even if no one else said a word about it. So hopefully with this little step to another thing for a bit that makes me feel that way as well I will be more refreshed when I return. I am still going to organize the big secret santa this year. And hopefully that will help draw me back in for the new year.

Iri August 3rd, 2014, 10:28 pm

If an artist thrives off of comments and favourites, that does not necessarily mean they are bad or terrible artists. However, if you hate that about yourself, remember there isn't anything to hate about that. A lot of artists like getting favourites and comments, which doesn't mean that you're thriving off of them.
I am sorry to hear that you're becoming depressed. I hope you feel better in the future.
I respect your decision, and I hope other people respect it too. Feel better soon, Timitu; you're a wonderful, talented person and I hope the best comes your way. <3
And I'm sorry for your loss.
But I hope no one tries to force you into staying. Because it is your choice, your life..
That being said, all of us will miss you, from the members that have been browsing your galleries for so long, to the newest member just starting to see all your amazing art.

Timitu August 9th, 2014, 1:55 pm

Does not mean that at all you are right. But it does not help that artist the same. It is stressful to always be looking and thinking "I spent 9 hours on this and not a single favourite. No one has time to click a button. Everyone else gets favourites what am I doing wrong." I hate that feeling. When I draw just because I like it then it is not a chore. 9 hours seems like 2 when I do something. My pictures look great and if no one else thinks so I don't care. That is what I mean by that really. Drawing because you love it, not because you want someone to comment on it. Putting so much extra time onto something thinking "This is awesome. People will have to comment or favourite this picture." Is not the way of thinking I personally like in myself. If others like that way of thinking that is fine. I have nothing against them, just not how I like to do my art. I find my art looks much better when I am doing it for my sake, then doing it to get praise. (More fun when praise is just a bonus. )
It wont be a goodbye. It never is. I have been part of communities like this for 13 years now. I don't think I will fully leave. I wont have much time when I do come back but I promise I will come back. I just really need some time doing something I really love just because I love it for a bit. Maybe after the secret santa is over I might come back. Depending on how life is then. Once I get a job. That will help me a lot to. School alone is just frustrating, I can't actually work till January and have no money to pay bills. So when I escape I need something I just love doing no matter what the rest of the world thinks. For me that is YouTube right now. That can help me get though the insanity and once I feel better I will be back.

Thank you though Iri. You have commented a lot on my pictures and will be one of the people here I will miss while I am gone. Keep drawing and posting here. Maybe we can do an art trade sometime when I get back if you are up for it.

Iri August 9th, 2014, 2:01 pm

Ah, I see what you mean then, I understand completely. c; I do get that feeling sometimes. <33

But even though it isn't a goodbye, only a temporary leave, we'll still miss you. And if YouTube is what you feel like doing now, that's great! I'll sneak over onto your channel sometime. c;

And sure, perhaps we can. =D

Again, see you later and I hope you do feel better soon!

Timitu August 9th, 2014, 2:18 pm

Thank you Iri. I hope I do soon as well. I want to be me again. Ya come check it out. I will be posting a couple of pictures here that I will be doing for youtube help videos. I just have two little ideas I am thinking of working on. Most is just games. Older games but ones I think people on here and other places that follow me may still enjoy. (Also The Sims 4 when it comes out I want to do a couple of videos of. But not sure if it will be a series as much as some of my others.)

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