so, my dad passed away on Wednesday. I find it odd that he passed on Ash Wednesday though :\ it could be just a coincidence, whatever. The funeral was on Saturday, and damn, it was packed. Then the burial was yesterday. I have like mixed emotions right now, I don't even know any more.... I mean like, my dad has been with me all my life, making me laugh, accompanying me on school field trips... now, he can't be there when I graduate high school, getting married, etc...... I just feel so depressed and sad or whatever, idk.. Ugh, 2014 is being a b***h to me :T I'm just like very..... idk anymore! It's like I can't take this anymore! I'm only 16!! I don't know how long I'm going to be able to hold off the emotional pain! Gah, I'm just like soo close to just giving up. Everybody says that it's gonna get better, but to me, it's not.. I'll probably just leave and not com back, my life is choking me to death!! irl, I act like I'm all happy outside but in the inside, I'm all broken down and depressed...
I need your help guys. Comment, gifts, something, idc, but I'm not trying to be greedy here, I just need help, your help. |
