Lioness Music:Drowning Pool- All Over Me 
Lioness Mood: So Seriously Far Beyond Lioness Driven, You Cannot Measure It, Cannot Stop Running, Cannot Die, Cannot Be Killed~ 
Lioness Health: Very Poor 
Thew Up: 10+ Times Today 
Lioness Nausea Magnitude: 6+ Borderline 7)(Not Good)
Lioness Weather: Cool Windy 
Holding Currently: My Lioness Plushy Nikkita~ 
Soviet Lioness Quote: So Many Things Ignored, So Many Things Abhorred
Contemplating The Edge Of Forever, In Just One Second in Time..Time Has Stopped For Me..
Looking Over The Edge Of My Cliff, Calm Cold, Unemotional...Should I??????
Now Thoughts are in my Lioness Head... Should I??? Breathing Slow..
Deep, Contemplating...Should I??????
Something I just Might Regret
Something You will Not Forget
Maybe I should throw away
Everything I've learned today
All Over Me, All Over Me
Pushing Forward From The Truth,
Maybe Its Me and
Maybe Its You??
Sometimes I dont know My Self??
Yeah I had a Really Bad Day...I feel badly I cannot work on my Art Trades/Requests tonight......wish I coulda stayed at MLK Forum Longer....
well it all started as it usually does morning Extreme Nausea, cold sweating, sever chills...So I got up grinding my Lioness teeth, then I saw my Leopard Throw, a Massive Red Crimson Wet Soaked Mess, All Over from one of several of my illnesses, so had to clean that up, not including the Huge Wet Crimson Red Stain on the Air Mattress ...then after 30 mins of that, then I went below for breakfast, which I knew was gonna end in Pain
It did..then after Throwing Up 7 Times for the better part of 75 Mins of Blinding Pain...I just collapsed, then Literally Lioness crawled into the shower's.....breathing shallow rapid breaths..just sitting there thinking to get enough strength to turn on the warm water...So I did, then hit the Shower Switch, the Engaged the Main Shower Head, Full Strength...105F Felt EFFING Awesome!  
Then after 73 mins of that Blissful Hot Steamy Lovin, The Water Up...I then literally Lioness crawled out, then realised blood was dripping in large drops on the bathroom floor as I crawled on it on all fours, which it had also started in the shower bottom, leaving a large heavy trail, as blood ran out running down the side of my left side of my neck onto my chest, dripping offa it coming from inside my mouth and from my nose too, occasionally my Lioness Ears will bleed from inside out, a nasty side effect of throwing up like this, you see....So it didnt stop bleeding for prolly 3 hours.... ... I've been ill all of my life like this, its a wonder I didnt die before?!! But for some reason I keep on going...  
Then as the day Progressed I wasnt feeling much better, I knew if not, I could not work my Art Trades/Requests tonight??! So i tried hard to feel good enough to do them.. sadly not as I Threw up again 4 more Times after Lunch... I crawled into the Showers...That Felt good...Then Crawled out, bleeding from mouth and nose, running offa my chest, dripping onto the floor...did that for 2 hour's, then it quit... I then crawled into my room, not letting daddy lion see me like that, I hate to let him see me so vulnerable..I feel like such a bother to him..I would be very afraid to have friends over, they might not be able to handle it  , the Miserable NightMare that Is My life.... 
Well I then passed out in my bed after that, didnt get up till a little after 19:08 , then I got up, slowly sorely agonised, wondering if this Pain could get any worse??! Cause I Hurt So Badly Right now Inside of Me!! I cannot describe it.. I refuse Prescribed Painkillers, like Codeine Tylenol, Morphine, Oxycodone, Oxycontin...to name a few... I do NOT want addiction issues, with them.. I just rough it, like I always have, its (The Soviet Russian Way Of Things) , as one Soviet Soldier in WWII said.. ( That Which Does Not Destroy Me, Only Makes Me Stronger!) DA KHOROSHO!! Comrades!!
Well Earlier this week, I made an IMVU Account, then bought with daddy lions help, the VIP Status for $75.00 charged Annually, plus extra an 30,000 IMVU Credits.. which are an additional $29.99 (USD)
Heres my IMVU Page, URL:
http://www.imvu.com/catalog/web_mypage.php?user=155289825
Dont mind my New Avatar Look, its still me, I have Three Photo Pic Albums, At least 4 Room's I Created for my own fun, What can I say, I love IMVU!
Well I'm getting Weak.. So i better let this go.. I needed to update my FAA Journal! I better go check my messages in my MLK Account here..
Lioness Music: Seether- Weak
Soviet Lioness Quote II: There's something changing in me
There's something growing in me
There's something changing in me
There's something growing inside of me
It Wont Go Away...It Wont Go Away..
Go Away, I Don't want this..........
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I Really appreciate that Sis!! Yeah it was a bad one, I've had it like this all my life. Bad genetics are behind it, as my body isnt doing very good as my genetic's are so flawed and degraded, from inbreeding on my mothers side of the family, most if not all the girls on mom's side are the same like me, cause of the inbreeding! But yeah, I hope it gets cured too! Thank you **huggs tight nuzzles sweetly** My thoughts are with you too, Sis! 