by AustralianChaos » November 29th, 2010, 3:56 am
Tanga sighed as Imani avoided his concerned, and instead attempted to offer him a meal to help sustain. Part of him wanted to ask her again, but he suppressed with practiced patience he had learned in the last few months. He had learned fast that when Imani avoided a question, nothing anyone said or did would get her to answer, and it was generally for the best to just let the matter drop. Besides, Tanga reasoned, there's nothing here...she must have just been startled...it's not worth persuing.
But as he watched Imani try to find something for him, he looked around himself, taking in the barren, destroyed lands. He knew Imani's self-imposed task of finding him food was doomed to failure. Even if she did find some small morsel, he would insist on sharing it with her, and making sure Ra got something, too. In his mind, he was the least important lion of the trio, and as such, could go with the lowest rations, and even go without for periods of time if it became necessarry. He knew he was slowly killing himself, but he'd rather keep Imani and Ra alive at the expense of his own health than see them suffer instead. Imani was too precious to him, and Ra was holding the next generation in her belly.
He pulled himself out of his thoughts as Imani turned back to him, whispering her worries at their lifestyle, shuffling her paws nervously. "I know..." he replied softly, placing his own paw softly over Imani's, making it stop it's nervous shuffling as he attempted to comfort her. "Staying here is doing nothing for us...and I have no idea how the cubs are going to survive here when they arrive..." as he said this last part, he glanced over at Ra's sleeping form, sighing form. "They deserve a better cubhood than this...and we all deserve a better life..." with his paw still on Imani's gently, rubbing it softly in what he hoped was a soothing motion, he looked into her violet eyes, almost losing himself in his love for those orbs, and the lioness they belonged to.
"We can't stay here anymore, Imani...we have to find a new home..." he said, a sad finality in his voice. This place had been home for so long...which was why they had not migrated yet...but migration was now necessarry. Tanga doubted he would last another month in his current condition...he was just about killing himself to ensure Imani and Ra had some semblance of health...and he knew that if he did let the lack of food overcome and kill him, that Imani would be beyond devastated. He knew that he was willing to die for her...but he also knew the effect that could have, and vowed that he would only resort to that as an absolute last resort. The situation was desperate now...they simply had to find a more bountiful land...anything would be better than this ash-coated wasteland.