This is the longest spring break ever, and it's only Monday
I suppose it's a bit much being dumped out of literally nowhere (nothing bad, he just didn't want a relationship with anyone anymore). Then they tell you "we shouldn't talk, so we can get over it." And you know, this dude was my best friend for months up until this, we texted every day and now we don't at all? It's hard finding stuff to do, especially when everything in you wants to stay secluded and alone (even though you've been doing it for weeks post-breakup and it's destroying you *COUGH*).
It was a bittersweet experience cleaning earlier. Finding the two roses I recieved, one from him and the other from my best friend. Both of whom no longer want to speak to me
So that was also fun. (My best friend is angry with me for some poor life choices that are affecting my health, and hasn't spoken to me since she yelled at me!)
It's definitely been a journey of self-discovery these past few weeks. Mostly to realize I can't place my personal happiness on another person. Quite honestly, it's been very rough but I'm starting to finally make some progress with it. I'm also going to be getting help with my severe anxiety hopefully so
yeah it's terrifying but *shrug*. If I want to ever maintain a future relationship I need to sort myself out.