by PixelLord88 » March 4th, 2017, 5:57 pm
I selected Agnostic-leaning Theist. I was raised lazily Christian. My family believed in God and took me to church, I did vacation bible school, sunday school, the works but it was never strict or forced on me. As I grew older I began to question religion as we tend to question everything as we grow older and learn more of the world. For a long time I considered myself Atheist. I couldn't fully put blind faith into a belief of a God. But there are things I also can't explain away. Religion is extremely important to my step father however. So, I pray at the table before we eat. When he's down I tell him to pray and ask for guidance. I show him respect. Recently however, he asked me to say the "Salvation Prayer". As I understand it, it's a prayer born again Christians make as a plea to save their immortal soul. In general terms; You acknowledge that Jesus is your savior and God's son. You recognize that you have not been living your life for Him and pray for forgiveness. You pledge your life to Him from there out. I said this prayer and he told me I was saved. I do not feel any different. I still have doubts. However, I do yearn for peace of mind. So, whether it's true fact or not that there is a God I choose to believe there is. I choose to see things that way, in the same way I choose to believe that Astrology is real. There's no concrete proof but I choose to believe it. I see it as a matter of perspective. There can be an event in your life, such a job loss or something, and you can choose to see it as just a job loss or you can see it as God's plan. As long as I'm not hurting anyone else I don't see any issue with that. I could see how this kind of view could be damaging, but I also know that I would never make a decision solely based on religion also. Simply because I can't make the smallest decisions without over-analyzing all the possible consequences and perspectives. I never see anything as black and white.
it's enough for this wide eyed wanderer
that we got this far