My Lion King Forum

Hmmm well some things in my life is still crap. There is a matter of my deep deep depression that i am suffering as long with cancer too that i was diagnosed with it bout 3 weeks ago and i have only 6 to 8 months to live me life unless the doctor finds a cure which they havnt yet.

Well my depression started in grade 9 when i was failing school and the teachers were being so mean to me and abusing me and yelling at me and the fact that my ex ex girlfriend died in my arms was also really sad too.

but shaken up with this news i havent been able to sleep right and do work at tafe right and i just broken up with my girlfriend bout 3 days ago which made me even sadder and is putting a toll on my life and i think it was my own fault that she broken up with me the onlz thing i can do is to blame myself and i wish i can undo all my mistakes in the past to make is easier... i cant sleep right,do work,I cannot be able to do stuff,I cant eat right now my life is really going down hill at the moment.... just last friday i tried killing myself again because life is a waste of time. and right now i feel like doing it again... I cant even focus at TAFE i just burst into tears in class and the teacher just sends me out to talk to him and her.... oh and another thing to add is my friends most all of them backstabbing me and hating me and they always beating me up and i mostly get stabbed in the gut with some sharp object I keep getting mobbed by them and i end up with stuff stolen. One time they mobbed me and they stabbed me bout 6 times in the gut and stole my $1500 laptop, camera and $650 out of my wallet and they stole all my cards like bank cards,ID,Gift cards i was stripped. and its not face to face to even i get abused by them on MSN too they call me names.

some of the things they said...

Poofter
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go kill yourself
emo f***
go suck one of your gay friends d***
go get f***

and thats not only thing i get death threats too from them like

Im going to kill you
im gonna smash your head in
Me and my friends are going to kill you emo fag
Im going to make you bleed
Im going to kill you and all your family

that some of the stuff i get bombarded with.

but i am thinking of going to counseling to help with my suffering with deep depression

WOW I'm sorry to heard that , That's the most saddest things that I ever heard, I really want to help you with something

By this stage, thinking about getting help is way to late. You need to stop thinking about it and get help now. The people you posted about are not your friends, you can't keep looking to them for support or friendship or anything. They're clearly just a pack of criminals and the quicker you never see them again in your life the better.

I know you might think that with your illness life doesn't matter, but there's no reason not to live life to the fullest for as long as you can.

I agree with Mike. =_= Those people are NOT your friends. You really need to get some kind of help, and now. Before anything else gets worse. Thinking about it will do nothing for you. Go and get help so this can stop.

I think you should talk with someone. That you trust. As for those names.... ugh just stop posting them. There are some members under age here you know. But anyway, I would suggest get some help, like a thearapist or something. Talk to your siblings, your parents anyone that you know won't do that stuff to you.

i know.... Im trying to hang on here... n plus im going to counseling to try to fix my depression.

Just tell them to stop or ignore them Commando. Real friends would NEVER make death threats or call you such horrible words. Tell the police if you have to. Everyone's right, you NEED help. Thinking about it getting it won't solve anything. You shouldn't think about killing yourself all the time... you're still in school and haven't even begun your life yet. =(

Ill do that xD but now i carry weapons on me due to crime increase.

Dude, these guys are not your friends. I don't even know why you call them your "friends". I don't even think they are worthy enough to be called a friend to anybody. I suggest you get help right away and try your best to find some new ones.

First of all, they're not your friends. Second of all, dont let threats get to you. They're just words, mere sounds. The only time you need to worry is when the threats become reality.

Second of all, MLK really isn't the place to post this kinda thing. Seriously, its pretty heavy stuff, and this is a TLK site, not a talk-about-crime-and-death-threats site.

If you need advice, just talk to a close friend in a private conversation. Also, making this kinda thing public can be pretty bad too. Imagine if your "friends" found this website and your username. It wouldnt be difficult to do that.