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Full Quality Here: https://www.deviantart.com/featheredsec ... -790105762 -- Nothing More - Fade In, Fade Out Word Count: 1974 featuring: Alexei and Pacino (ScreamingYearly; Zephyreu-s) mentions: Emerald and Royer (Apothocareon; StarCanid) It's strange, really strange. It's strange to know you are the last of your family. It's been nine months since Herne passed away. I cried when Alexei told me. I always believed I hated him. I always believed I wanted him dead. But I don't know... when she told me that. I crumbled. That's the only time I've ever broke like that, and it was over someone I truly believed I wanted dead. I was wrong to believe that antic at all though. Very wrong. When I was told, I realized how wrong I was to want that. I was furious with his choices. I was ashamed what he chose to do with his life. However at that moment, I realized what I chose to do and what I chose not to do, were wrong. Royer did have that right. My self-pride. I should have been there. I should have talked to him. I should have done something that wasn't avoiding him. Even at his maiming, I did little to nothing. Hell it was too late to do anything then, not without getting myself killed. And there is another bat of that pride. Watching that happen was painful. Having to pick yourself who was maim you, having to hope whomever it was, wasn't just going to kill you. But I frankly believe he would have wanted to have been killed there and not have to have gone through everything that followed. Everything before was a Hell as it was. I and nearly the entire city enforced it and rejoiced at doing so. Emerald was among the only to not do as such. She from what I saw, did attempt, but even she didn't do all she could. What she did do got her a lot of scrutiny for doing so. To this day I am still baffled the shadow of him that still sits over this city. It's likely to be something that will last longer than a lot of us here now. Herne's dead now. I would be a liar to say I didn't miss him. I miss all of my family. I miss my dad, my mom, Cal, and Herne. Time and time again I wonder how differently things would have played out had I not listen to mom to stop trying to stop Herne from running off after that cricket as we entered the city. But instead dad went ahead to get Herne. He didn't come back with him. Instead an uproar exploded, making Cal, mom, and myself speed up and enter into Massilia. We had walked into a battlefield. I believed I was the only alive from that. But then I learned Herne was a hunter in training. I at that time, was unable to try and find him due to my own training, that I personally loathed every moment of. But then I heard what he did. And that made me hate his existence, and as I just said, made me want him dead, but I never had the back bone to do so myself. Then he came back, and I just avoided him, and that got him killed. He never knew I existed. So all that trauma he had under him, I am in ways glad and relieved he is dead and not on this rock anymore. He doesn't have to suffer. I'm actually kind of jealous of you all. You all are away from suffering, and have the others and get to be with each other. I'm stuck here, feeling alone and left out. The closest thing to family I have right now is Xei, but there are times I still feel so out of place. She about to be a mother and is mates with Pacino. Both of them are two I don't know where I would be today without. A close second to them is Emerald and Royer. Emerald I am certain is onto my living conditions today, and Royer I screwed up with just as badly as I did with Herne. With Royer though. I am trying. I am doing everything I can do to try and help him and get him back on track. Having to hunt him and Ramagi down was something that gutted me inside. Royer's been extremely closed off since that though. He still says I am his friend, but I could never be certain anymore. I've had several call me as such then stab me in the back. There are days I wonder if I should just leave everything. I know every single hunter of this city would want me on a platter, granted like half and counting already do because I am far from perfect at the job. Herne flew through training from what I was told. Before doing what he did, helping eight Lightning Empire Cats escape, was b-lining himself right up into the Elite Ranks. He probably would have been the youngest ever Elite to have gotten into the ranks. I question what made him change his mind so suddenly. Or if wasn't suddenly? It's probably something to ask if I want to chewed out for, but lately, that's something I want to look into more of. Where to start on that though, that's a good question of questions all on its own. My days over these last months, have been better than the last year and more. I may be without any owner. I may be a lesser of the Hunter ranks. But there are several things I have now that occupy me. There is Livia, a cougaress, she younger than myself. But by a huge degree though. But her life and what she deals with remind me of myself and Olis. I to this wonder what the hell you saw from him. Same with Jubilee. She is far better than Olis I will say that much. But I think she present day thinks I cut her from my life. She has children she needs to raise, and my issues need not be something to get between that. So I did have to shut that door for a while. I could probably go on a long list of all of those I have in my life now, thinking more on it. Most of them I've let down one way or another. Some I've not... not yet anyway. Yeah, sure you've prolly figured this out long ago, but when you are raised by brutes, it's almost impossible to see anything you have done as a victory or a completed goal. However though, I hope I can change that. I hope to be able to learn more of who Herne was before he turn-coated, and... and I hope to do you justice. Hell, I honestly hope like Herne, I get proven wrong, and you're around. But until then, I continue with the memories. You watched us all fade in, I got to watch you all fade out. I hope I can see you fade back in. My eyes were shut, sitting out on the dock that sat closest to Massilia's Wall, breathing slowly. I had a day off from my job, which was nice for what it was. I did believe there was some announcement due in a few days, but wasn't sure of what. The Raid of Air Empire had gone well. So it was probably around that. All I had gotten was a cub, a premature cub. Nothing fancy, but it's something. "... hey I figured I'd find you out here." a voice broke through my thoughts, making me look back at who spoke. It was Alexei. "--it's quieter." I replied fairly dryly, where Xei simply rolled her eyes. It was clear she was more than far along in her pregnancy. She to me shouldn't have been all the way out here though. "--don't look at me like I shouldn't be out here." she snapped, being one of the few that could see what I thought most times. It was something I did like from Xei. I smirked slightly, "You shouldn't, aren't you due to have them?" I asked. Xei glared at me as I looked back out to the ocean, "I'll know when I am about to them dingle hopper." "That's a new one." I replied, "Pac know yer out here?" Xei almost snorted at the comment, granted I said so she would. "I've not told him. Him being him though, would be a hawk flying behind me." "--too bad he doesn't have wings and would have to rely on wax wings." I commented, but got cut off before I could finish. "No Icarus jokes." she glared, "I will just push you into the water if you continue." "Tempting price tag." I glanced at her again with those words, but sighed again, seeing Xei sit down herself. "So why do you come out here all the time?" she asked, though it was a question I never really gave a real answer too, which she knew. "I was talking to my dad." I then replied, again turning my eyes to look at her. She looked at me, not exactly certain if that sarcastic or not. "Was that another smart ass comment?" she questioned, "there are those times they're hard to tell." "Nah I always come out here when I can and aimlessly talk to the ocean." I spoke in a smart ass tone that time, knowing Xei would know I wasn't joking on that. Sure enough she just looked at me again, not a confused face this time, but more a curious one, but didn't reply. "... It's... it's how I think most times." I replied, answering the unspoken question, "I think you already knew a lot of this." Xei shrugged, "Well I heard you mentioning Herne some, that had me curious as to why?" the snarked comment flew off her tongue like the ocean's withdrawing tide. I shrugged slightly at it, not having an answer that wasn't something sarcastic. So for a change I didn't say it. Xei didn't say anything either, well, not instantly. "I should tattoo a smile on yer forehead." she chimed with an almost snooty tone, rising to her paws, "but you'd peel yer skin off to get rid of that. You are a jackass after all." I looked at her. "You better believe I am a jackass." I stood up to my paws and turned to follow Xei, mostly to get her back to where she was supposed to be, "how close to do you think Pacino is?" I then toyed. Xei pointed to her left, to where the ocelot was falling off the neighbouring dock's flag pole, and a splash and dunk were heard. So Xei and I both walked over to have Pacino pulling himself from the water and soaked. "How was the swim Casino?" Xei replied. "Refreshing." Pacino retorted, shaking off water like a dog. I shut my eyes as did Xei, but that resulted in a hard shove at me. Sending me barreling into the water. I resurfaced to see Xei laughing like Hell and Pacino just smirking. "That was for?" I scoffed, and began making my way back to the dock's steps. Pacino without missing a beat to the remark, "I wanted to push sassy over there but she is pregnant and you taught that blasphemous line, so I pushed you into the sea instead." he shrugged as I got to the steps, where I helped up slightly. I shook off myself and replied, "I hope you realize this means war?" Pacino looked at me, "Not in front of the Miss's, ass." Xei took a hard glare at Pacino. I meanwhile just smirked at the line, and shook my head. "What ever you say Pac." I spoke and away from the docks we went, to where ever Xei had in mind.