1 so as a baby i of course don't remember much so were gonna skip right away to school.
2in primary school i was usually the popular kid(oh my has that changed) and then i already was a disaster to the teachers, my mother said that by that time all the girl were running around me
.3 then we moved to the other side of the city since our old home was to small.
at first i didn't like it but after some time my new school was way better and the teachers were way nicer there. (by this time i also had my first autism test which came out negative at first).
it was over at this school a met a friend of me back then he was like the cool boy in class.
we always hanged out doing stupid stuff doing things that weren't alloud stuff like that.
4 then in the 6th class(still primary) my whole life changed.
suddenly that friend betrayel me started bullying me with all his friend who were like 16 year old(i was 11 at the time) and i never knew why.
i changed from a very confident kid into a very very shy kid who was from then always laughed at.
everyone in the class and school were scared of that boy and his friend so suddenly the whole school was against me.
5 now it was time for me to go to high school i was so happy since i know was finnaly freed from that boy.
the first year went pretty ok i had some friends and one really good friend which still is a really great friend to date.
my marks were really good and i actually made it to i higher level
.to bad i still was like the oustander and still was regulary made fun off and being laughed at.
6 now i'm in the second class and my life definentily took a negitive turn.
i got into a new class which by far was way worse.
being laughed at all the time noboby liked me always being left out.
i only had that one great friend which i also had in the first class.
then also the marks started going down again and because of the stress of not making into the next class i started getting really agressive punching the walls kicking almost everything in the whole house screaming that type of stuff.
then i had to go through another autism test which i am still going through luckily they think i won't have that.
now i'm being helped with my stress and it is going better step by step but still i'm being the outcast laughed at not being able to be myself at school.
music is and this place are my only savior when i listen to music it is world off for me i can forget everything living in my own word of melody(i listen maily to metal music things like metallica megadeth more on that stuff on my profile).
and i recently started playing guitar which has become almost everything for me.
so yer probably now meany people are going to read this but i felt like doing it don't know why
